Thursday, December 24, 2009

I'm not always the bad guy... ok mom? :( @ 12/24/2009 12:18:00 PM

Whew, it's gonna be christmas soon. Oh well, no more xmas gifts and all, just celebration. At least, I am quite happy to confess some stuff :)

Although I can't really do it, because it's hard for me.. At least my mom knows i have a boyfriend. His name's Jaybe actually :) a very understanding guy...

I told my mum he's 20 and just finished studying and her reaction was "he's old?" hahaha... yea, 20 is old. ;)

3yrs older than me, that's not that old right? plus, he looks younger mwahahaha. i wanna introduce him to everyone on my 18th birthday actually...

I'm just happy that my mum trusts me NOW... If only they know how much i wanna finish studying.. Especially now, i finally got back to my old me... wanting to study. i'm excited to be in college u know hahahaha... very much excited...

But, why can't i tell them how unfair life is... It's always me who follows and respects her, but it's always my brother who gets the praises... Whenever she wants me to pluck her white hair, i do it.. i always obey her it's just that i'm now open to showing her my Bad Side.. unlike my brother that only shows his "good side" not knowing there's something with my brother my mom doesn't see. If she could only open her eyes...

At least, i know people likes me, they think i'm kind and helpful and respects others. I don't boast to them,, i don't tell them "we're freakin' rich" .. although i don't always spend with my own money,, at least when i'm out.. i'm too kind to be true. hehe..

i can socialize to people without being arrogant.. i learned a lot of sociable skills when coming to singapore. Although i always cry at night, thinking about the problems i faced with the people here but at least it made me stronger.. i faced every single day all by myself.. talking with Jaybe while i'm crying made me feel better.. at least i don't feel lonely...

Sooner or later, everything i cried for will be replaced with the best happiness ever... For now, i can say... i am so much happy...

Thursday, December 24, 2009

I'm not always the bad guy... ok mom? :( @ 12/24/2009 12:18:00 PM

Whew, it's gonna be christmas soon. Oh well, no more xmas gifts and all, just celebration. At least, I am quite happy to confess some stuff :)

Although I can't really do it, because it's hard for me.. At least my mom knows i have a boyfriend. His name's Jaybe actually :) a very understanding guy...

I told my mum he's 20 and just finished studying and her reaction was "he's old?" hahaha... yea, 20 is old. ;)

3yrs older than me, that's not that old right? plus, he looks younger mwahahaha. i wanna introduce him to everyone on my 18th birthday actually...

I'm just happy that my mum trusts me NOW... If only they know how much i wanna finish studying.. Especially now, i finally got back to my old me... wanting to study. i'm excited to be in college u know hahahaha... very much excited...

But, why can't i tell them how unfair life is... It's always me who follows and respects her, but it's always my brother who gets the praises... Whenever she wants me to pluck her white hair, i do it.. i always obey her it's just that i'm now open to showing her my Bad Side.. unlike my brother that only shows his "good side" not knowing there's something with my brother my mom doesn't see. If she could only open her eyes...

At least, i know people likes me, they think i'm kind and helpful and respects others. I don't boast to them,, i don't tell them "we're freakin' rich" .. although i don't always spend with my own money,, at least when i'm out.. i'm too kind to be true. hehe..

i can socialize to people without being arrogant.. i learned a lot of sociable skills when coming to singapore. Although i always cry at night, thinking about the problems i faced with the people here but at least it made me stronger.. i faced every single day all by myself.. talking with Jaybe while i'm crying made me feel better.. at least i don't feel lonely...

Sooner or later, everything i cried for will be replaced with the best happiness ever... For now, i can say... i am so much happy...