let me speak out.

My November days ...

2010-11-17T19:21:00.002+08:00

It's been a while dear, that I posted my sweetweet, huh? :)

From my previous post, you can see how upset i am with myself. It was hard to reconstruct what was destroyed, but honestly, it will be helpful if, and only if, you built something with truth and love. Sometimes, it's hard to keep something forever, but taking care and making that something precious to you, will ease those difficulties for what you care the most will care you back.

Well, enough of it. I want to blog because it's been a while and I wanna say something, well just say something. :)

For the past few days, it was something worth the STRESS! haha.. so much to do.. hayy.. well... after some things to sort out, (which i did manage), I had my midterms!!

Oh my! First on the list of STRESSFUL WORKS, will be my SCRIPTWRITING of 45pages :( It was so stressful but, well, i did it! haha.. next will be my FOTOGRA midterms - 8 plates!! hahaha.. what else? hmm.. oh yeah! IMPROMPTU SPEECH for ORALCOM! whew! then, others, well, not bad anyway. haha..

So, after midterms, it's time to work things out for the Finals. Must focus on my script of 5-day (30mins each) tv series. and my FOTOGRA plates! :((

By the way, today, i was the model for my FOTOGRA groupmates! hahaha.. I learned some Studio lights set-up HOWEVER, i learned that those lights REALLY BURNS THE SKIN! my tip? USE SUNBLOCK when modelling! hahahaha...

Oh well, gotta bye-bye now!
I will really post every now and then... I miss blogging.. really :(

Love.Love.Love
...arak3nah...

PS: having DSLR now is soooooooooo nice!! well, just nice for an amateur like me :)
PSS: no more facebook JUST MULTIPLY!!!

I am so stupid :((

2010-10-25T20:23:00.002+08:00

It is broken, but i will FIX it..

My world has been so wonderful since you came. I have learned so much socially, emotionally, mentally, etc..

Once, i had the chance to feel this, but it was not for real. It was ... temporary . I felt like it was something to remember, but i realized, it's something worth throwing out of my life. I did not regret it anyway, since it is the best thing i ever did.

I left my old life hanging in the hands of others. I left it not because i want to, but because, God let me feel what the real world really means. It was something I should be proud of. I have changed a lot for the better.

Then came the rainy days of my life, lonely i faced it. No one to talk to but Him, beloved Father. I thought i wouldn't be able to take and face it, because I felt so down, sad and emotional. It hurts to the bones!

When I needed something or someone to hold on, you came. You made me feel that the song line "there's a rainbow always after the rain" by SouthBorder, was just so real. You are the rainbow THROUGH the rainy days i had. You were then the reason of every smiles i had. Hence, you were the reason why i am still striving for the better ME.

Mistakes do come in people, right? All these have just one purpose, to learn. That's why, every mistake i commit onto you, i ask for forgiveness and that I'll tell myself not to repeat it. So, i tried, and fortunately, i had improved. I know.

Whenever i talk to myself about the "US", only one thing came across my mind, I can't afford to lose you, because, you're priceless. You even introduced me to the Heavenly Father, how to put Him in our hearts as to not make Him jealous. So to you, I won't make you jealous. That's what I told myself, because, I have known you for almost a year and a half, and I won't let you be hurt.

I know you know that I love you.. Sometimes, fights exist in us, because as you said, we love each other. I have loved you so badly, i couldn't let you go...

Yes, indeed, i have been stupid once in a while and very immature, but loving you is the truest above all truths :( You may deny it yourself but i know, you can feel it so much. I have never wanted you to cry. I miss you. :(

I may be a burden to you, but you will always be the treasure to me ...
I will always be here for you, I love you :)

.♥.arak3nah.♥.

new day..

2010-08-10T10:51:00.002+08:00

hahaha.. nothin' ..

nothing new about me, just a bit. because my 2nd term in college is about to finish and my last term as a Frosh is about to begin. wipee! so happy! ^_^

anyway, i hoped for a "no friday class" but, well, i don't know.. i still hope there won't be ..

So, i'm kinda lazy to post today, hahaha.. but i just want to have something to say..

I'll just post next time, when i'm ready to express myself. woot~

loves♥

What's new?

2010-07-27T17:03:00.005+08:00

Hello there, dear passer-by!

smile! :)

Anyway,, nothing's new with me, well nothing much.. It's been ages since i posted something with sense. haha. So here's one..

I have been busying myself in school works and stuff and chillin' with my baby "sunget" :)

We love to hang out at SM Mall of Asia or Robinson's Ermita. haha.. So fun. ♥

It's been a while and my 2nd term in CSB is about to be over. It suddenly feels like the world's spinning faster this time, huh? :)

Anywayss.. I am so superrr excited for next term since i am planning to take my majors like SCRIPT1 , hihi.. also FOTOGRA and ESTHETA.. gosh.. can't wait to get a closer learning to my course .. ^_^

Moreover, i am having a major celebration with my baby this weekend, since we are having our 1st anniversary on August 2, 2010. OMG! we're planning to celebrate it in Tagaytay.. huhu.. We want to have a picnic there, then gala! hahaha.. omg. can't wait really... haii..

So for the past few days,, i had so much fun with him.. we have some pictures though.. wait. :))

here are some.. just to show us.. ^_^

I LOVE YOU BABY!! ADVANCE HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARYYY!!! :)

2010-05-03T19:37:00.001+08:00

facebook site opened!!

2010-04-18T08:21:00.001+08:00

COUPLE NECKLACES AVAILABLE TOO!!
Php 380/pair

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Online Shop :)

2010-04-06T21:26:00.004+08:00

whew! finally, we have our online shop now...

We are now selling contact lens... price varies, depending to the type of lens.

FOR MORE INFO PLEASE VISIT:

http://jamsonlineshop.multiply.com

JAMSONLINESHOP NOW OPEN!

2010-03-30T01:36:00.003+08:00

WE are selling contact lens now!!

interested? email me: jamsonlineshop@yahoo.com

my 18th birthday BASH! :D

2010-03-18T15:16:00.002+08:00

a post for March 14, 2010 event - MY DEBUT! Ü

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

I had fun on my debut. really had fun because i've never expected such number of people will attend my party. Yet, it turned out to be wilder and more fun that planned. Fun really isn't to be planned but to be done.

There were people who were not able to attend but my family, relatives and my boyfriend were there. my friends from elementary, high school and college were also there. it went well and people said it was fun. thanks so much to them they made my day more exciting!

Yet, i want to apologize to some whom i was not able to entertain... sorry. i was really *OMG* i don't know where to go and all. i should have table-hopping bit longer. whew!

no worries, my graduation celebration will be WILDER! hahaha. 3 years from now, I PROMISED MYSELF TO GRADUATE 3 YEARS FROM NOW and i will really try my best to be a Dean's Lister (DL) but wish me luck on that. my filipino sucks!...

anyways... WHAT A FUN AND MEMORABLE BIRTHDAY!!! I LOVE YOU ALL PEOPLE!! 18 years of my life has passed and i will now be legal and matured! :3

lovelovelove!! ♥♥♥

mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! *kissss*

last day of feb2010

2010-02-28T18:17:00.002+08:00

Oh my! how time flies.. i always forgot to blog. haha, so my blogs are not up to date. to sum up everything that happened to me for the past months, it's just so great to have friends this term in college. College life now is better compared to my high school life. i am having fun with every subject though some lectures are hard to understand.

One thing i love most is that, i have friends to talk to during class hours or whenever. haha. i miss such experiences that i did not experience when i was in singapore. whew! 2010 is so great, really!

well, the bad news only is that, it's midterms week! hhuuhuh.. good luck for me! :'(
but, my debut's next week! can't wait! i'm so excited, but there are still things to do for the debut, the invitation's still not out! it's still on printing. GOSH!! it;s late! :( what can i do? i'm so like, rushing everything now! T_T

Well yea, till then. not much time to spare for blogging. must do revisions for my lectures/ midterms. :(

byebye february! :]

after a long period of time...

2010-02-27T00:35:00.002+08:00

yey!! i manage to blog again. wipee! hahaha..

it's quite difficult for me to blog since, i am "kinda" busy (busy-busyhan) with school.

OMG. next week is MARCH and next week is also the start of Midterms Exam!! :'( Sadly, i'm still weak in my FILIP11 class, huhu... also BIBSTUD and HISTORY :( goodness!

but but but... the long wait's finally coming soon,, MY 18th BIRTHDAY!! my DEBUT! =)) i am sooooo excited and quite nervous ... T_T i don't know why.. hopefully, this will turn out better than expected, or at least, as expected. :]

anyway, gotta sleep now.. soooo sleepy now huhu.. gudnyt..

mwamwaaaah! :*

College Life ..

2010-02-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

OMG! i don't have time to blog every single day..

However, college life is although tough, but FUN! besides, i am better student now than before. Why? because, i submit stuff on time! hahaha... I wanna pass all my subjects now. gosh! i'm so busy.

I always have Jaybe to accompany me everywhere i need to go, like interviewing street vendors, or go to computer shops and all. Thanks to him, he sends me home at night. hahaha... what a helpful guy. miss you bhie! :'(

Mom's coming back to Pinas on saturday! yey,,

Nothing much to say, midterms is coming... gosh! :(

Well, goodluck!
have fun! haha.. ^_^

a very happy life now :D

2010-01-25T20:23:00.004+08:00

January's gonna be over soon... how time flies so fast! :)

My first week in college last week was a fun week. At least i blend in along though not totally...

Anyway, a fresh new start for my life now huh? I used to blog sad, depressing posts, but now... i often blog happy stuff now. hihi..

I am just so happy for what i have right now.. Every little sadness is gone and as the lyrics go, "...~ there's a rainbow always after the rain ~..." , it does tell that for what sadness you are having at the moment, there's always this glowing shine after that. Just try your best in overcoming it...

Whew! always having fun now hihi... especially with my "sunget" .. ;)

My family's still in Singapore so, they just call me or contact me through facebook or YM :D
For sure, they miss my supladita attitude na hahaha...

I'm not at my dorm, alone. My roommate's still not here, so yeah. Me, alone, using my pc, blogging! hahaha..

I do my homeworks though, (FINALLY)!! hahaha.. im trying to be a better student now. haha... mwah! :*

that's all for me.. it's quite difficult to blog every now and then, 'cause i don't have wifi connection yet, but Pat (my roommate), suggested for applying for wifi, hihi...

till then.. ^_^

1st day as a college student @Benilde.

2010-01-18T21:59:00.002+08:00

Whew! 1st day's over.. and i had a great day.

First thing in the morning, i met my room mate for the first time.. her name's Pat. hehe.. She is kind, really and "madaldal" well, kinda. hehe.. But she's fine to be a roommate hehe.. yet i haven't seen my other roommate, hopefully soon.. hehe... anyways,

PL (Pauline) texted me this morning that's why she waited for me @ the ministop beside my dorm.. So, i have someone to be with during the first class. it's great that we will be seeing each other everyday, only once a day though. :(

Then, i made more new friends as the day went by.. Hopefully, i will make more and more till the end of my stay in Benilde. hahaha..

Well.. i gotta go. Can't tell so much.. coz i arrived around 6pm and i'm sleepy now. haha. as always. ok...

bye now. :*

Google is so useful !!

2010-01-11T00:32:00.003+08:00

Wow.. late post again.. was about to sleep when my ipod hangs.

So.. i dunno what to do and searched GOOGLE, "What to do when ipod hangs?" and then the youtube link/video was one of the results. i clicked it and there! it worked! nyahaha..

This is why technology is so useful nowadays! it is sooo easy now to KNOW SOMETHING! I love the Internet, Google, Laptop and all gadgets. goodness! it's easier to know things up :)

Just Google it and, BOOM! what you need to know and want to know will suddenly be known :)) *lols*

BTW.. gotta sleep now. i have to wake up early later because i have to be in school by 2pm to get back my O'Lvl results. yey! :)

Pass or fail.. Whatever my result will be. i will accept it WHOLEHEARTEDLY! hahaha!!

Inform you later.
nightsss... zZZZzZzZz..

midnight post.

2010-01-10T02:04:00.002+08:00

Had a great day that's why i am still awake. hahaha.. Since i couldn't sleep.. gotta post some stuff. hehehe...

I posted our fun trip pictures on facebook and my multiply. go check it out! hahaha..
BECAUSE ....
1st stop: Ate Angi's house.. (celebration of her bday Ü)

2nd stop: bowling @marina!! :)

3rd stop: dinner @ makansutra

4th stop: esplanade (tour ate vivian!)

started the day 3pm.. and called it a day by 11.30pm..

Anyway.. i'd like to share some stuff... Latin phrases we use frequently..

I always get curious with stuff that i do researches. That's why google is very helpful, really!

I was wondering, " What does P.S. means after notes or letters?
I got the answer!! :D
It is from the Latin words Post Scriptum meaning After letter .

In a written communication, “P.S.” stands for the Latin phrase post scriptum, which means “after writing.” It is meant to reflect the fact that the text marked with “P.S.” was added after the other material had already been written, as an afterthought. You may also see a “P.P.S.” below a “P.S.,” and potentially one could create a cascade of “P.P.P.S.'s” and “P.P.P.P.S.'s,” although this is generally viewed as bad form.(source: wisegreek.com)

ANOTHER ONE ...

After that, i was watching the movie, "I Love You, Beth Cooper" and heard this phrase "Carpe Diem" so i got curious again and so some research...

From Latin meaning "Seize the day" ... Used as an admonition to seize the pleasures of the moment without concern for the future..

Usually translated from the Latin as 'seize the day', or sometimes as 'enjoy the day, pluck the day when it is ripe'. (source: phrases.org.uk)

taong-bahay !

2010-01-07T22:12:00.002+08:00

yaks! stayed home the whole day, except for dinner, coz i ate dinner outside wid my dear mommy. nyahahaha...

uhm.. gonna be HOME soon. nyahahaha... nex week, imma gonna go to school (singapore) to get my olvl result and then, on wed, imma gonna go back to The Phil to arrange everything before my class start on the 18th. yeayea. i am super uberr duperr excited! hahahaha...

Well... i don't wanna be "taong-bahay" anymore.. i wanna go out! hahaha.. wanna meet my friends, my kumare and him.. hahahaha... love you all! ♥

oh well.. my friends aren't excited to go to school.. well i am! because, it's my first day! hahaha.. i always get excited during FIRST DAYs.. =))

2nd post for January 2k10 :)

2010-01-06T21:37:00.002+08:00

Well well.. it's been almost a week since i posted my last blog post huh?

Hmm.. nothing much happened to me these past few days, just stayed @ home, or went mall-ing... hehehe.. but nothing so special.. Ü

BTW, i just heard that 2009 O'Level Candidates can take their results by 2pm on 11Jan10.. can't wait. though i'm not expecting to pass mwahahaha... :)

So.. i just wanna share about this snake i saw a week ago in a TV show titled "Brilliant Creatures".. I love their show, though gross but interesting! hihi...

The snake is called an "egg-eating snake" which definitely explains what does this snake eats :))

I tried to search on YouTube the said episode but i couldn't find it, so i searched another one..

This is so amazing.. look at how it did eat the WHOLE EGG and spit out the shell after crushing it inside it's body... interesting..! ^____^

well.. i got fascinated and, told my boyfriend about it. He suggested that i should try watching "weird creatures" on youtube. you don't know, he "loves" national geographic.. he's so "NATURE"-AL. hahahahahahaha...

Welcome 2010 ♥♥♥ !!!

2010-01-01T03:39:00.002+08:00

Wow!! 2010 is finally here!!! Know what? I am just so excited to enter college life... hihihi... I hope, college won't make me feel bad like what happened to me during my high school years.. how sad.. *sob*

Anyway, my wish for this year is to have uhm.. good health, happiness and contentment in life, courage to face every single problems i may encounter in the near future, and to have good results or consequences in every decisions i make for myself...

Ok ok.. Let's start the year with a smile!

Time to change the calendar people!!! ^_____^

Last Day of Year 2009. Bye my bitter 2009 :)

2009-12-31T13:26:00.002+08:00

Wow.. it's the last day of the year, 2009... Everyone's reminiscing their 2009 and so will i. :)

2009 didn't favor me so much. I had my DOWNS for months, the beginning wasn't that great... i had cried so much this year but the thing is, at the end of all the cries i had before, is a Colorful Smile i will be wearing for the first day of 2010 because i will be leaving my 2009 smiling.

I graduated High School and settled my college in The Philippines, taking up the course i want, and now open to everything :)

I've learned a lot and became more matured this year, i can feel it. I think i became more matured because i finally realized and learned from my mistakes and everything...

Once in a while, i thought of just failing and don't bother about life, die and get rotten along the hi-way. hahahaha... eew. :|
BUT then, i realized, why must i get affected by the people who don't even have social skills and only focuses on academic stuff that, if you don't know how to adjust to the people and environment, you may tend to FAIL TOO, even if you are freaking smart in school!

Yes, bitter i am. Why? Because of my bitter experience this year. Let's say i have a friend, whom I THOUGHT IS REALLY A FRIEND but NOT!! I say this because, this friend of mine is the person i am always with this year, i treat her as a friend and i think she does treat me as her friend either BUT when it comes to academic and school stuff, she tells me straight to the face "haha dumbass!" ... she thinks everything's just a joke but NOT!. She doesn't even say "just kiddin'" she just calls me dumbass every time i ask her... I have to bear with her, let her shout at me giving her a straight face :|
She just think i'm not smart. She will really tell me that. "i don't think you can do this, your brain doesn't even have anything" and then she'll "hahahaha!!" :(
Is that funny? If she's my friend she'll know when to joke around and when to get serious with life...

Also, being a different nationality from them, i felt how to be ALONE and SAD and OUT!!! :( BITTER 2009 huh? grrr!

WELL, NOW.. I will leave those unforgettable BAD EXPERIENCES in 2009, and go on with my life... 2009 never favored me, as i said earlier. it just taught me how to cry...

So, I will start my 2010 HAPPILY AND CHEERFULLY! :)
GOODBYE 2009! GOODBYE TEARS!
HELLO TO A NEW BEGINNING!!! mwah! Ü

The Coming of New Year... 2010.

2009-12-29T01:06:00.002+08:00

Wow... 2009 is going to be over soon... This Friday, the year will never be 2009 anymore, but 2010..

Gosh.. let's start the new year in a good aura...

Be happy and excited for the upcoming year. Let's face another year full of happiness and love. hihi...

Oh well.. it's quite late now.. gotta post later. good night. :)

BTW.. i just confessed to my mom about Jaybe.. She didn't get angry!! I am so happy.. I am also grateful because the Sermon or Homily in the church last saturday was about Parents VS Children. The thing is, I asked God's help. He helped me! Thank you so much Jesus... I love you Jesus!! :)

I have been praying and asking Lord's guidance and signs if i am already being bad or demonic but then, after hearing the priest's sermon, i got the answer of "no". Since the Sermon says, "You should honor your parents. Children may not obey their parents when their old enough to think for their own, but it doesn't mean they do not honor or respect their parents. Just that parents should not over-control. "

Thank You Lord. It cleared my mind..

Let's be open and proud people! yeabah!! ;p

Christmas Day!! ♥

2009-12-25T12:32:00.003+08:00

Wow.. It's Christmas!! A New Year's gonna come soon!! 2010 is coming...
I'll turn 18 in less than 3 months mwahahaha...

Well,, gonna go out and spend the christmas with my family outside... hihi.. Ü

So yea. later! :)

I'm not always the bad guy... ok mom? :(

2009-12-24T12:18:00.003+08:00

Whew, it's gonna be christmas soon. Oh well, no more xmas gifts and all, just celebration. At least, I am quite happy to confess some stuff :)

Although I can't really do it, because it's hard for me.. At least my mom knows i have a boyfriend. His name's Jaybe actually :) a very understanding guy...

I told my mum he's 20 and just finished studying and her reaction was "he's old?" hahaha... yea, 20 is old. ;)

3yrs older than me, that's not that old right? plus, he looks younger mwahahaha. i wanna introduce him to everyone on my 18th birthday actually...

I'm just happy that my mum trusts me NOW... If only they know how much i wanna finish studying.. Especially now, i finally got back to my old me... wanting to study. i'm excited to be in college u know hahahaha... very much excited...

But, why can't i tell them how unfair life is... It's always me who follows and respects her, but it's always my brother who gets the praises... Whenever she wants me to pluck her white hair, i do it.. i always obey her it's just that i'm now open to showing her my Bad Side.. unlike my brother that only shows his "good side" not knowing there's something with my brother my mom doesn't see. If she could only open her eyes...

At least, i know people likes me, they think i'm kind and helpful and respects others. I don't boast to them,, i don't tell them "we're freakin' rich" .. although i don't always spend with my own money,, at least when i'm out.. i'm too kind to be true. hehe..

i can socialize to people without being arrogant.. i learned a lot of sociable skills when coming to singapore. Although i always cry at night, thinking about the problems i faced with the people here but at least it made me stronger.. i faced every single day all by myself.. talking with Jaybe while i'm crying made me feel better.. at least i don't feel lonely...

Sooner or later, everything i cried for will be replaced with the best happiness ever... For now, i can say... i am so much happy...

My Christmas Wish

2009-12-20T20:52:00.002+08:00

It's been a long long time huh?

Didn't have time to blog because my laptop's SICK again. hahah...

Finally, i'm a college student now at De La Salle - College of Saint Benilde (DLS-CSB) taking up Bachelor of Arts in Digital Filmmaking (ABDFILM). Ü

Ok.. My post will only revolve around the ONLY wish i have this Christmas..

It's not an easy wish... but i don't know how am i going to fulfill it. :(

I want to confess to my mom about everything...

Nung nasa pinas kasi ako, naisip ko, bakit kelangan lagi ko sila kasama? Bawal bako mag isa? Pero hindi un ang point ko, my point is... Sana masabi ko lahat ng saloobin ko sa kanila, sakanya. kasi ang hirap. gusto ko maging maluwag ung pakiramdam ko bago mag bagong taon... gusto ko maging malaya...

Sana Lord, tulungan moko magkaron ng lakas ng loob na sabihin sakanila un.. ang hirap kasi eee. napaka close-minded nila pagdating sa feelings ko. sinasabi nila iniintindi nila ako, pero ako.. pinaka gusto ko lang pag-aralin nila ako. patapusin lhan nila ako ok na ee. ok nga lang sakin kahit di ko na sila makasama sa pasko or sa bagong taon ee...

Yun lhan... nakakatamad mag-post in details e. nahihilo na kasi ako..

sbi ni Jaybe kausapin ko nlhan dw ng masinisinan nanay ko, ung kaming dalawa lang... Sana gnun kdali diba? tulad nila ng mama nia, baet kasi ng mama nia e, nanay ko striktong close-minded lalo naman tatay ko. hehe..

Sige Lord. Kayo na po bahala sakin.

Welcome Back to The Philippines!

2009-11-24T21:42:00.005+08:00

It’s my 11th day stay in Philippines now and I’m sooo much happy to be here, even though I’m just at home, watching TV and playing with Cyril, our maid’s daughter. Boredom’s gone when I play with her. Haha…

31 days to go before Christmas. What’s your Christmas wish list? I will tell you my wishes next week, December 1. Hehe…

I’m also excited to get my results in Benilde. I hope it favors me. I wanna get in there! REAAALLLYYYY…

I don’t have much updates because I have the WORST internet connection at the moment… Next month may be better… I wanna update my blog, multiply and all but well…

My only wish for NOW is to GET IN to BENILDE… GOODLUCK for me!!! Ü

BTW: another typhoon's gonna hit The Philippines. Let's pray it will cause no harm to us and Let's also pray for the dreadful Massacre victims in South Cotabato, Maguindanao, Philippines. T_T

till then. mwahzz :*

My Last Day...

2009-11-12T21:28:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow's gonna be my last day here in singapore..
Yes, indeed. i am super happy, for i will be back to where i really call HOME :)

anyway... these past few days have been busy for me, since friday.. i went out with my friends. too busy to blog. At least, we only left ONE O'Lvl Paper. Chem P1. yes!

After which, i'll be off to airport. Mega will send me to airport, with Swas. So yea, Entance Exam in Benilde on Sunday. I wanna be in college already! Stuck in high school for 6yrs. UNBELIEVABLE! X_X

Well... gotta pack up my luggage now. and tidy up my room.. coz i am moving out! =))

I'll blog again soon.
will update every now and then. for now, check updates of pictures in my multiply account.

And oh.. watch movies online @ http://www.momomesh.com

Or.. there's this movie i watched online. VERY FUNNY and AWESOME!!!
title: 27 Dresses

PS: Click "Close AD" to watch it... thanks.
>if it says video url not found, refresh it. until it works. ^_^

your browser does not support frames

ENJOY!! Ü

a little more cry...

2009-11-08T14:25:00.002+08:00

DAMN IT!!!

i'm so pissed... I don't know what to do. I'm so confused right now...

Kagabi, i was in a bday party, bday kasi ng kakilala namin... napag usapan kung saan ako mag aaral at facebook. about sa facebook, dumating ung topic na binura dw ni Ate Ezel si ina sa friends nia, na alam ko naman kung bakit. i do. haha.

Anyway, naku ate ezel... PM nlhan kita pag ngOL ka. bka may makabasa pa nito. mabuking pa mga KINIKIMKIM kong galit. hahaha... kaya ako laging badtrip ee, dhil "sknla".. db ate ezel? :)

Eh,, tapos nalaman ko pa, babalik nanaman kami dito. Syempre, ayaw nila ako mag isa s pinas ee. palagi nalang nila ako binubuntot sknla. FORCED na nga ako sa lahat ng bagay. FORCED na din un pgiging happy ko...

Umiyak nanaman tuloy ako kgabi... naisip ko nanaman ung mga bagay na nakakainis. Kung tutuusin,, mas gusto kong mag isa kesa kasama sila.. tutal naman anjan sila ninang ellen, ate ezel, aisa, mga kamag anak at friends ko... atlis kahit papano mas sumasaya ako sakanila. Di nga alam ng pamilya ko, ayaw sakanila ng mga tao. Nakuu.. hahaha...

NO MORE DEBUT dhil din dun. they changed nung napunta sila dito. nung minsan sbi ni ina "kung alam ko lhan, sana di ko nalang tinanggap ung offer".. gusto ko sabihin "BUTI NAISIP MO PA YAN!!!" kaso xempre, nanay ko xa kaya KIMKIM nlhan ulit db? un na nga ee, nanay ko xa. need respetuhin kahit ang hirap na magkimkim. mas gusto ko MAPAG ISA! magpakasaya! kesa sa bubuntot sknla. wala naman ako magawa kundi titigan sila. MAS MAHAL KO PA LAPTOP KO kasi mas lagi ko kasama laptop ko ee. hehe...

siguro nga, di ko DAW sila naiintindihan at pnplilit DAW nila ako intindihin. kahit 1% ng buhay ko HINDI NILA ALAM! hahahaha. galing nuh? di nga nila kilala ung totoong ako ee. kasi NAPAKALAYO KO SAKANILA! mas open ako sa tao kesa sknla. sila kasi laging "dapat sosyal" ... syempre, kng wala sila wala ako. KUNG WALA SILA, WALANG PERA!!!" diba? :))

pera lhan naman ee. hehe,, sana kumita nako ng pera para di nako umasa sa kanila. di na nila ako kokontrolin diba? akala ko,, tapos na un sadness un pala HINDI PADIN!

sana magkaron nako ng sariling "say"... na pede nako maging happy in my own way. gusto ko tuloy tawagan si ninang ellen... :'(

SANA umuwi nako ng pinas at magaral! sana tanggapin naman ako dun. mas gusto ko dun kesa dito. mag isa man, masaya NAMAN! eh dito? MALOLOKA KA sa sobrang daming kinikimkim na galit sa buhay. kaya WALA NAKO GANA!!!
mas gusto ko mag isa kesa makasama sila. mskit nuh? un na ung feeling ko naun ee... YUN NA TALAGA! :((

siguro pag magisa ako maiisip ko mamimiss ko sila. pero naun, naiisip ko na mas masaya pag wala sila. hahaha. weird nuh? but,, TRUTH HURTS!

gusto ko na malayo sakanila... gustong gusto naaaaaa.....

A stressful and tiring day

2009-11-05T21:09:00.002+08:00

What a day.

I started my day, when i woke up around 8.30am, because of my mum. Anyway, i already planned being at school ASAP, so i bathed and wore my PE and went to school by 10.30pm.
I went GO to ask for "transcript" but they don't even know what is that so, NEVER MIND.
Since Benilde needs so many requirements, i'm rushing to submit it by November 9.

Anyway, Mdm Tan Lin filled up my Recommendation Form as my form teacher (adviser), and well, i waited for Mr Teo to fill up the other form as the Discipline Head. Urgh.. At around 1pm, i finished everything and chitchat with Kokila for a while, since she went to school too.

So, i walked from school to Kovan MRT. I haven't eaten yet so i bought snacks from Old Chang Kee. Then, i alighted at Dhoby Ghaut station to go to my mom's office in which, i stopped by Auntie Anne's to buy a pretzel bread. Ü .. hehe, then, i ate it while walking to the bus stop and boarded bus 65. I arrived at my mom's office quarter to 2pm.. My mum ate half of my pretzel since she haven't eaten at all, too. She was writing a letter to Benilde. hehe.

Moreover... I went to buy on Mcdonald's meal and my mum and i shared it... hehe, they were giving this Monopoly thingy. haha. Btw, I was still in my PE attire. :'(

So yea, we settled my requirements and went to Lucky Plaza at Orchard around 3pm to send it back to my Aunt in The Philippines, whereby she'll submit it to Benilde personally. THANK YOU SO MUCH TITA LENY! :]

They said, it will be received tomorrow afternoon. Thank Goodness!
And then, when we were heading back to my mum's office around 4pm, my brother texted, saying he forgot his keys inside the house this morning, he couldn't go in. So, we asked him to "come over" ... hahaha, so the three of us, went home around 5.30pm with Ate Vivian.

I am so tired, and stressed with the requirements. urgh! :(

Oh well, I hope i'll be admitted in Benilde. PLEASE!! :(

So.. Goodnight.
Ü

MorNight ...

2009-11-05T01:16:00.002+08:00

Oh well. I just wanna blog this late for the things happened to me, why am i still awake.

Uhm. O'lvls Phy(P2) + Geography = O'lvl nearly ending. yey :]

Well.I don't want to talk about the papers, but the things i did when i arrived home. i was so DAMN SLEEPY and yet, i still need to fill up my application form for my College, and then Complete my requirements and SEND my application form before 9Nov2009 which is like, 4days to go! Goodness! Stressful. Cramming. Rushing.

So many requirements needed.. In Benilde, choices of courses i chose were: 1)Digital Filmmaking, 2)Technical Theater, 3)International Hospitality Management.

hahaha.. Well, i have to go school later after i sleep/wake up/bathe and all, to try if the school can give me one of the requirements, My Transcript of Records. Urgh. I just want to study happily... And be far from "them", 'cause with "them", i feel alone and imprisoned, and feel the pain of people (relatives) hating you. huhuhu. I just want to feel how to be a HUMAN BEING, not a DOG anymore. :'(

Till then.
♥

10 more days...

2009-11-03T13:08:00.001+08:00

Good Afternoon! Ü

Wow. 2 days already passed by.. And for that 3 days, nothing much happened. haha.
Last Nov 1, we went out to church as usual and my mum fetched her friend with her family at the airport.

Next day, which is yesterday, i had my SS and Chem paper 2. goodness! Good thing, the papers were manageable. yey. ^___^
Actually, the break in between the papers yesterday were 4hours+ that's why Me, Sabina, Swastika and Shumaiya went to the hawker center behind the school. hehe. Funnily, Sabina always raise her hands sideways AND hit people. BWAHAHAH!! don't do that anymore Sabina. :D

Then, at night, we went to Kopitiam @Hougang Mall with Tita Nancy and her two children and my mom and brother. It was difficult for Tita Nancy's family to look for food with wide variety of food. hahaha. So they kept looking here and there. I was the last one to buy food - Chicken Cutlet rice. hihi.. *yums*

Oh, when i was buying drinks with my bro, i saw Jakey and his friends. haha. funny jakey, he called me "kaaatriiinaaaaaaa" hahaha.. then waved, and his friends did that too. haha.. *shy*

We arrived home pass 9pm. hihi..

Oh well, later we will be in Swensen's @Compass Point to celebrate Tita Nancy's advance birthday, since they're leaving tomorrow. They're in Sentosa now. I wanted to go also but i wasn't able to wake up. haha.

Blog later! ♥

PS: 10 more days till O'lvl ends... and my stay in Singapore. Only 10 more days.

Last Day of October 2009 !!!

2009-10-31T23:48:00.002+08:00

Wow! time flies so fast, really. Seems like yesterday was just the end of last month, now a new month's gonna come. Excited? Well, I AM! :]

These past few days, we just had our O'lvls - EMaths and AMaths. Wow, if u will ask me how's my EMaths, i can say it's okay, finely done but for AMaths.. don't bother asking me. it's like ur asking me the obvious. hahahaha...

Hmm.. What else happened, let me think.... Oh oh!! well, nothing really.. too bad i couldn't blog for these past few days because i was so tired being home as late as 6pm... Btw, last friday was TORTURE - both exam and weather. Goodness!! the Exam Paper was HARD/TOUGH and the weather, i mean the hall was SO DAMN COLD, FREEZING COLD! I couldn't bear it that i had to sniff all the time because i was freezing even if my jacket was on. grrr! And since that day, i got this terrible colds+cough. urgh!

Then, today.. it rained "HEAVILY" that we were drenched when we got into the shuttle bus from Hougang Mall to our Condo.
THEREFORE, i was feeling sick already when we went to Takashimaya @ Orchard, then the weather was cold, that i got drenched. NOW, i feel like imma gonna get fever. *cross fingers* hope NOT! :'(

Oh Oh! I also heard about the NEW TYPHOON hit The Philippines. OMG. can typhoons STOP going to The Philippines? They're already sick and tired of your visits. goodness! Worse still, it hit Metro Manila too. OMG. my place my place!! noooo!! Pray for them ok? :]

So, yea. tomorrow's november one - All Saints Day.!! i want to visit my grandparents' tomb too. it's been a long time since i last visited them, but i have to be in Singapore to finish my O'lvls. haiis..

Oh well. 2 more weeks to happiness! hahaha.. love counting down for it. bwahahah!! Ü

Okidokie. few more minutes till Nov. 1.. so yea,
time to update my calendar and events haha...

good night.Ü

blog later ♥

O'Lvl Started...

2009-10-27T10:36:00.003+08:00

Good Morning! :)

Yesterday was English paper (both papers), and well, i find the paper quite fine. Of course i couldn't say it's easy because Exams are always not easy, only manageable.

Anyway, I wasn't able to blog yesterday because we started the paper around 1.30pm and both papers were finished by 5.45pm... So, i reached home 6.30pm... The Bus 62 was so crowded, and every student was talking about the O'lvl paper! hahahaha..
Oh, I forgot to wear my jacket that time and i was freezing to death!!! gosh. I should wear one later... For today's paper, (EMaths), it should be fine... though i can't be so sure if i can pass this or not but i will do my freakin' best for it. hehe.

I slept quite late last night, good thing O'lvl starts at 2.30pm today. hehe,, I am only scared for Humanities and Chemistry paper. For AMaths, i am trying to memorize every formula ... well, still not confident. hehe.

whew countdown! 3 more weeks to go, then i am back to the Philippines again! can't wait! I am so excited. After O'lvls is total Happiness!! :))

Bonne Chance for Today's paper!!!
Blog later! Ü

I had FUN !!!

2009-10-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

Yes! I am back in Singapore again, but only for 3 weeks. I have to leave Singapore right after my O'lvls. I brought some of my stuff in The Philippines and left it there, since i still have so much to bring back. hahaha.

Anyways, last thursday, i was using my laptop in The Philippines when suddenly, the lights went off. BLACKOUT!!! We only had ONE candle so we had to share the light from it. i missed the thrill of brownouts. After 3 years, i finally experienced "Life in The Philippines" again. i missed it.

Oh Oh!! i have visited like 5 schools for my tertiary education. I tried De La Salle University - Manila, but they told me to wait till the 2nd week of november, if the course i want will have vacancies, BUT in benilde, i am going to take an entrance exam on the 15th of November.OH MY GOSH! can't wait. hahaha.

For Far-Eastern University (FEU), they told me if i want to start on 9th November but of course, take the exam on the saturday which supposed to be TODAY, but i said no, i wanna finish my O'lvls first. since, it's only 3 weeks. UE said the same thing. I'll be fine with Benilde if i pass there. hehehe.

Furthermore, yesterday i was so damn happy. hahaha.. though i got IRRITATED when i was registering to vote for the next presidential election. grrr!! the QUEUE was SO DAMN LOOOOOONG! it took me hours there, some took days :| registration system in The Philippines is so poor. can't it get any better? >_<
But i was happy, i saw my cousins and all... wow. what a day i had yesterday. I couldn't get over the FUN and EXCITEMENT and HAPPINESS and JOY i had...

Can't wait to go back there. Being there is SOOO MUCH, no, WAAAAAY BETTTTEEEERRR than being here... see you again all, soon! ♥

Now, i wanna rest.
*dizzy*

2009-10-22T09:30:00.000+08:00

Whew.. It’s been almost a week since my last blog post huh? Well, kind of busy these past few days because last Saturday, my brother threw a belated birthday party. It went well though, just that he and his guests only played. Anyway, the party ended late, so I wasn’t able to blog.

The next day, we woke up quite late due to exhaustion caused by the party. Hahaha,
as if right? :]

Then, On Monday, my mom went to office to work so my father decided we should eat at Hougang Mall. Hehe. And then, we packed up our luggage for our vacation back to the Philippines around 3 days only, how sad huh? :( So yeah. I’m here. Hehe.
I wished to keep my vacation secret for some people as I wanted to surprise them but, well… I’m not sure if I can meet them since I am sooooo busy looking for my school…

Today, I am going to Manila to look for a school there and my choices were: De La Salle University (DLSU), De La Salle College of Saint Benilde (CSB), St. Scholastica, Assumption College. My mom also wants me to try University of Santo Thomas (UST), Far-Eastern University (FEU), and more. Hahahah..

So yeah, wish me luck! Actually, I prefer De La Salle University because there’s no uniform. Hahah. I have my own reasons why I don’t want uniforms. Eehehhe..

By the way, last night, I was checking my other phone when I realized someone texted me in my Singapore Sim Roaming, it was Charles. Hahaha. Shocked by the message, I still read it and I felt much better every time people see my blog posts in Filipino. Yes, they read my blog in written in Tagalog. Actually, quite a number of people read it and they always say “I almost cried with your post. Good Luck Ara.” I was like, OMG! Someone still can understand me, still trying to cheer me up. The first one to read it was my cousin. She was like “I read ur blog and I almost cried. Don’t worry, have fun.” And I was like.. “thanks couz! Loveyah!”

It’s so relieving to know that there are still people who care for me, despite their hatred or disliking towards my family and all. I wanna dedicate this post to those who really put effort in reading “My cries”. Thanks SOOO MUCH for really, after reading my post, really contact me just to cheer me up, say good luck and have fun and all. Still, I am so blessed to have you guys in my life.

Blog later! ♥

Graduation 2009 in SG.

2009-10-16T10:59:00.007+08:00

Wow. Time flies huh? I have been studying in Singapore for 3 years, and it just ended, and after O'levels. It's over! I'll be in The Philippines. yes! Ü

OCTOBER 15, 2009 - is the day, the last day, the farewell, the GRADUATION DAY. but NOT the GOODBYE!

Anyway, it was a sad thing though thinking about the friendship i created throughout my secondary life in Singapore and leaving them with sad and happy memories... I will miss them, my teachers, my friends, my classmates. I had a wonderful class 4A, it's fun being a 4A student, despite our lame jokes, scoldings from teachers, laziness of some, and rumors around. They're WILD. yes, that's the word. hahaha.

Thanks to our Dearest Form Teacher, Mdm Tan Lin, who taught us for 2years and guided us in our studies and being so motherly to us. We will miss her nagging sessions, her Math Stuff, and her likings for Retro stuff. hahaha..
and to all my teachers Mrs Chew for Physics, Mrs Mahinda for English, Ms Chan for the ionic and covalent bonds we had for Chemistry, Ms Loo for the world to be in our hands and the conflicts we tackled, Mr Lawrence for making us run as fast as we can during PE lessons, because "the last to reach him will get it!" hahaha and other teachers like Mr Danny who didn't teach us but still treat us as his own student :).

My friends, for being so great, our laughing sessions together. My Mother Tongue friends, for sitting altogether laughing at each others' lame jokes. ahahaha.. and don't forget our mother tongue in library, it's always our pleasure to irritate Kit right? :)) The Lemon Tea bottle filled with water by swastika. =)))

Ohh man,, i didn't know i will have more friends than expected.. Thanks. I will never forget you guys. You made my stay in Singapore and Yuying Secondary School way better than what i thought it would be.

Love yah guys!♥♥♥

*more pictures posted in my multiply account. Ü*

This is not the end for us, as we will always be friends with good memories forever. So may Thank You's to everyone i met and befriended in Singapore. You'll always be in my heart. mwaaaahs Ü

I hate life because.. :(

2009-10-14T21:34:00.004+08:00

Ngayon,, dapat nagsasaya ako kasi finally, nakatapos din ako ng high school. pero hindi padin ee. Di ko padin nkakamit un pinakagusto ko sa buhay. ang maging MASAYA.

Madaming tao na ang nakakaalam ng tungkol sa problema ko.. Alam nila kung gaano ako nahihirapan na walang kalayaan maging masaya. Masaya kasi ako pag wala sa bahay.. boring kasi sa bahay ee. tinitgnan mo lhan pamilya mong hindi naman ako napapasaya kasi hindi nila ako maintindihan.

Yung ibang tao,, alam nila kung gano ako kalungkot at kasaya over some things in life. Pero mismong pamilya ko hindi alam yon... Hindi nga nila alam,, madaming naiinis sa kanila. Butii nga nung pasko may pumunta pa eeh, sa susunod wala na.. pati ako, ayoko na din pumunta.

Eto din ang dahilan bat ayoko Mag Debut. Bakit pa? WALA NAMAN PUPUNTA. sino pupunta, langgam? insekto? tae? kalabaw? Sa mga pinsan ko, kahit si ninang, ayaw na pumunta. bakit? dahil sa pamilya kong nag iba ng ugali.

Buti pa sa pinas,, nagkakasundo kami.. masaya kahit papano. nung napunta kami dito.. naging magastos kami, tas nag feeling mayaman.. tignan nalang ang ugali nila, sabi nila ibang iba ako sakanila.. Kasi ako, outgoing ako.. nakikisama.. Sila kasi, nagiging mapang mata na eeh..

Honestly, andami kong hinanakit sa pamilya ko. Napapalayo na yung loob ko sakanila. Para ngang hindi nako Herrero eh. hahaha.. mas gusto ko pa sa pinas nalang ako, baka sakaling ma-miss ko pa sila... Grabeng dami nilang hindi alam...

Siguro tingin nila masama ako kasi teenager ako.. Dahil teenager ako kaya ganito ako umasta, ee hindi naman ee. Tinanggalan nila ako ng kaligayahn ee. araw araw nakong umiiyak. gabi-gabi. nasasaktan ako habang nagdadasal. kasi nahihirapan ako tanggapin na wala akong kaibigang naturing ng matalik talaga sa high school ko dito. Pano, tingin nila nwawala din ang kaibigan.. eh syempre, mawawala kung hindi mapapahalagahan. diba? gusto kasi nila,, mag aral ako ng mag aral kahit hindi ako masaya. Eeh wala eeh, tinatamad nako mag aral. Hindi ko nga alam kung mapapasa ko pa un O'Levels ko sa katapusan ee... kasi,, kahit anong gawin ko, hindi nako ginaganahan mag aral. kumbaga, patapon na buhay ko. hahaha..

Ang gusto ko lhan naman, hindi nako control-in. gusto ko lhan naman, hayaan naman nila ako mag decide para sa sarili ko,, gusto nila maging independent kami, pero yun ginagawa nila. hindi nakakatulong. Kelangan ko nalang sila para sa PERA. PERA nalang ang dahilan bakit ako kumakapit sknla, hindi dahil masaya ako.. kasi, hindi na talaga ee... nahihirapan nako..

Nagsisimula nakong bumagsak dito,, kasi hindi ako namo-motivate sa school ee, puro nlhan kng anu-ano sinasabi sakin. tulad kanina, nung PE namin, tinanong kami ng teacher namin san ako mag aaral, sabi ko "sa pinas" sbi ng guro namin "ha? bakit dun? ee un katulong namin nagtapos dun, katulong lhan dito" ... ano ba un? pampalakas ng loob? tapos kapag hindi ko magets un tinuturo samin, tntnong ko un mga "akala kong kaibigan ko" kung pano yun. tas ipapamukha pa lalo sakin na BOBO AKO! oo na! bobo nako! matagal ko nang alam!! wala na nga akong kwenta eeh!

Sa pagtatapos ko dito.. sobrang saya ko! kasi mawawala na un hirap na dinadanas ko araw2 sa school... Tiniis ko lahat ng nanyayari sakin sa school MAG ISA. sa buong buhay ko, mag isa lhan ako umiiyak.. kaya nga un dibdib ko, sobrang sikip naa. butee nlhan si ninang ellen, plaging anjan sa tabi ko, makikinig sakin..

minsan naiisip ko, siguro gusto ng aking ina maging kasing sipag nia ako magaral.. Pero sa pinas, pag exam, nagaaral talaga ako,, nag mememorize pako.. dito,, kahit major exam na,, pa-relax relax ako. hindi nako tinatablan ng takot ng exams eh. para bang, wala nakong pakielam kng mkatapos ako or hindi.. kasi ano pa? sila lhan naman kasama ko palagi. wala nakong ginawa kundi sundin sila..

Yung pagiging teenager ko pumapasok na issue kapag ganito ako. ssabihin nila, teenager kasi ganito ganyan. Pero kung tutuusin, hindi nawawala manners ko. ayoko nga na sinasabi ng mga tao na mayaman kami.. kasi ayoko maging mayaman. gusto ko tamang buhay lhan... Naiinis nga ako bat pa kailangan namin mapalayo ee. nakakabayad nga ng utang, hindi naman masaya.. Uo pamilya plagie ang dapat nauuna, pero haii..

Kung alam lhan sana ng aking ina kung panu unti-unting lumalayo loob sakanya ng mga kamag anak namin... ayaw na nga magsipunta sa bahay ee, ayaw na nila makita sila... Sana ako gusto pa nila ako makita, kasi naiinggit ako sa mga tao eeh.. Sila, close sila ng relatives nila, e ako? lumalayo dahil ayaw nila sa ama ko. tapos nadadamay sa pagka-ayaw nila sa ama ko si ina.

Haii.. kung pede lhan... UMUWI NAKO NG PINAS at HINDING HINDI na babalik dito!! kaya ko naman ang sarili ko. alam ko naman ang ginagawa ko.. hindi ba pwedeng bukas nako umuwe! T^T

Yung sulat ni ninang para kay ina hindi ko pa nabibigay kasi,, pag binigay ko un, may itatanong skn un panigurado. E nahihirapan ako mag explain pag nagtatanong xa. kasi, kaharap ko siya nun. hindi ko masasabi lahat ng gusto ko sabihin. kung alam lhan tlga nila..

Oh siya.. hanggang dito na lang. kasi wala nako maisip na sabihin.. gusto ko na matulog. I hate my life now,, soooo much!!

I love you ______. Thanks for everything, for being a good listener and always there when i need someone to talk to. u're the best! mwaah. ♥

2009-10-13T00:29:00.002+08:00

It's quite late now,, but i couldn't sleep. There's so many things bothering me, tonight. It's like, there are so many questions in my mind, and some wishes that are hoping to be granted ...

I just don't know who to talk to regarding this, since no one could understand me except one or two of them who really listens to my freakin' cries. i thank them for that.

At least, i know that a few, one or two people reaaally knoooow me.. how i get angry, how my emotions come out of me, when will i cry, my happiness,, my wants and needs in life.. my personality.. they know me more than anyone.. I couldn't name names, since i don't want them to get involved here.. they know who they are, i've been thanking them every time... that's why i love them. they know me more than my parents or my family do. hahaha..

I wanna be with them.. they may not give me materialistic happiness, they give me the real happiness though, by trying to understand me..

I've been failing all my life.. perhaps, nowadays? hahaha. And i am not bothered, as in... it's like my dreams were crashed months/years ago... No point dreaming anymore, since i couldn't even achieve it.

Yes i am melodramatic here, but i am free to say what i wanna say, who i wanna mention and how am i going to speak here.

I just need some rest from anger, and wants to have a vacation in happiness world. I'm so tired being unhappy... i've lost a lot.. If Only THEY know,, again..
they always don't know anything. How will they know? they don't even listen or understand me.. i think because, they think i am too young to deserve the happiness i've been craving for EVER SINCE! :(

one of the closest people i know was right.. Everything CHANGED after i left The Philippines.. huge changes perhaps.

ok, i gotta sleep now.
later!♥

Birthday Greeting and stuff. hihi..

2009-10-12T11:54:00.003+08:00

Yes! today's my Beshy's birthday! She's 19 now..

Gosh.. we're getting older now besh.. i need to see you soon. miss you so much. I'll visit u one day,, i WILL. anyway,, i haven't given her any gift... i promised her one next time. hehehe..

Have a happy birthday babe. loveyah! I greeted u this morning already,, since i couldn't call u.. no balance on my phone.. so yea,,
goodluck. loveyouu ♥

______
ok,, another stuff i'd like to share is this video i saw from facebook. I don't know if you can access it,, but here's the link. (click here)

for those who couldn't access it,,
i tried to search youtube for it.. so here it is:

I am a proud Christian, a catholic perhaps.
So, i want to share this story/vid to everyone..

I Believe..♥

2009-10-10T20:53:00.002+08:00

Heya!

Nothing much for now. just that, my brother's birthday was yesterday and my beshy's birthday will be this coming monday. i'm so happy for her.. though i couldn't give her any,, but next time, i'll send her one. hmp! hehehe..

anyway,, my brother's gonna throw a birthday party on 17th of October, after his PSLE. hehehe.. i love parties, especially if my friends are there. that's why i miss my friends so bad. haii..

Good thing, Daphnie's gonna have her debut on december. I wanna go! grrr! i hope they'll allow me.. they always don't. as if i am still a baby... i have so many plans i couldn't do since my KJ parents always want to control my life, even though i'm not happy ANYMORE. what can i do? they have the money... as they say: "i am the one feeding you, so follow me!" (i still remember those times when they scolded me, and that made me feel so unhappy with them now.... )

So yeah, new stuff posted in my multiply account...

graduating on thursday AND... O'lvls coming!

Au revoir!♥

My Cries (part 2)

2009-10-07T22:42:00.002+08:00

Nakuha ko ang results namin kanina, hindi ko alam kung dapat maging masaya ako or malungkot. Ang hirap, nahihirapan nako. pagod na pagod nako sa nangyayari sa buhay ko. wala nakong ginawa kundi mag computer, umasang magkaron ako ng kaginhawaan sa buhay.
Gabi gabi ako kung magdasal, naiiyak na nga kung minsan, sa sobrang bigat ng dinadala ko. Nakakapagod na din umiyak minsan. Eto pa, dumating ang araw, o gabi, na nagdasal akong Sana may makaintindi sa nararamdaman ko. Hindi kasi sila ang nasa katayuan ko kaya akala nila madali lahat. Well, it isn't!

Madali kasing sabihing, kaya yan! kaya yan! pero ang hirap gawin.. Pinipilit kong ibalik ang dating ako, ngunit hindi ko magawa. Nahihirapan ako. Halos mabiyak ang puso ko sa sakit ng nararamdaman ko. Kapag nagsisimba ako, isa lhan ang dasal ko, pnpigilan ko pa ang patak ng luha ko kaya minsan, hindi ko na tinatapos yung dasal ko, umuupo na agad ako para hindi ako maiyak. Binabawi ko nalang kapag matutulog nako.

Ako, hindi ako magaling, hindi ako matalino. inaamin ko yun. tamad ako at parang walang pananaw sa buhay. Pero, hindi naman ako nahihirapan dati. Kung sana hindi ako napunta sa ibang bansa, baka ngayon, kasabayan ko na yung mga kaklase ko datee, mga 2nd-yr college na ngayon. biruin mo yun? 2years akong umulit? Ang tindi.

Ang nakakatawa pa dun, bumagsak pako sa dalawang subjects ko... at hindi lhan basta subject, dating paborito ko pa. Chemistry. gustong gusto ko dati ang Chem, pasado nga ako palagi dun eh, pero ngayon, un ang pinaka mababa ko. bakit kamo? isa lhan ang dahilan. Hindi nako interesado.

Kilala ko ang sarili ko, hindi ako natututo pag hindi ako iteresado. Mabilis naman ako maging ok sa isang bagay, kung masaya ako eh.. Simula ng mapunta ako dito, puro reklamo nalang ang lumalabas sa bibig ko. Sana hindi nalang ako napunta dito. Sana lang... Pero ano magagawa ko? Mas malaki kikitain ng mga magulang ko dito eh.. kaya dito sila. Uo nga magkakasama sama kami pero..... ayoko na lang magsalita. makakasakit nako.

Madami akong alam na hindi ko masabi, dahil ito'y tiyak na nakakasakit. Ang haba ng aking blog ngayon, pero eto nalang ang paraan na alam ko para ilabas ang sama ng loob ko. tinatagalog ko na lang nga para hindi na mabasa ng mga kaibigan ko na taga ibang bansa...

Dito ko nasisimulang mamiss si ninang ellen. Wala na kasi akong "kakampi". kumbaga, pag naiiyak nako, siya lhan makakaalam kung bakit. Siya nalang din nasasabihan ko, at siya lhan nakakakita ng tunay na AKO, maliban sa mga kaibigan ko...

Madaming dahilan kung bakit ko gustong bumalik ng pinas. dun kasi, masaya ako. sobrang saya, although may mga nakakainis na tao (hindi naman mawawala yun), pero atlis nakakapag focus ako sa mga bagay-bagay. Napapansin nga ng isa s TAONG KILALANG KILALA NA AKO, ang mga kwento ko, palaging may hinanakit. Kung mapapansin, halatang malaki ang aking pinagbago, pero hindi ko alam kung bakit. sisisihin ko ba ang aking sarili, kung sadjang ako'y lubhang nahihirapan?

Pagpasensyahan na lang sana pero, wala nakong magawa. Hinihintay ko na lang dumating yung araw na, maging masaya naman ako sa buhay ko at makita ulit ang direksyon na gusto kong tahakin. May gusto akong marating, ngunit hindi ko magawa dahil "sa kanila"... malaki nako. alam ko na yung gusto ko, at kung ano man ang gawin ko, alam ko ang consequences. Sana, hayaan nalang nila ako maging masaya.

Hindi ko masyado masabi lahat kasi hahaba eh. next time nalang ulet. madaming parts to. nobela na nga kung pagsasama samahin eh. sa dami ng dahilan ng aking gabi-gabing pag iyak?

If they only know, how it feels like...

(hindi kasi nila alam kasi akala nila masaya basta nag aaral. well, NO. masayang mag-aral kung nag eenjoy, hindi dahil kelangan mmo mag aral dahil lalaki ang pera mo. I dont care naman sa pera eh,, kaya nalang ako naghahangad ng pera dahil, un ang pambibili ko ng kasiyahan. Hindi naman ako masaya ngayon eh. Never. If alam lhan tlaga...

Goodnight. :(

2009-10-07T21:07:00.003+08:00

Today was our last PE lesson, and Mr Lawrence gave us a talk about things in life and all that. Honestly, whatever he said was so damn true... I kinda come to think about it, but it just happens that, i couldn't feel the same. Yes, people may not understand what i am freakin' telling here, but...

Anyway, I just pray every night, tears falling from my eyes, asking God's assistance to lead me to the right track of life... I may not be called 'matured' at this age, but i know how to differentiate good from bad... Yes, based from the tone of my sentences, i admit, i am bitter here. :|

Back to the main topic of my post, I just don't know what to say. Looking at my report book was like,, *no comment*. I've been talking to people, chatting perhaps, regarding some issues that came across me, yesterday and today, and i thank them for making me feel better, particularly this person who dearly listens to my every single cry, trying to make me feel i am not alone, helping me on what should i do, or how i could handle this and that... This person even know my weaknesses and strengths. How i wish i could repay this person's kindness.

During PG, we received our report book plus, Mdm Tan asked us to write some reflection.. And i will post my reflection with Yuying Secondary School in a while. For now, i wanna drink water and lay on my bed for a while. *headache*

2009-10-03T12:24:00.002+08:00

Afternoon to all!

uhm.. well, i was enjoying myself around facebook when i saw this terrible vid titled: "Why Hidden Cameras Were Banned in Russia" and here, lemme show u the vid. it's sooo disturbing, no not disturbing, uhm... mean and cruel. yea, that's it.

see? grrr!! i hate that old man! so hot tempered! X_X

Anyway,, blog later!

kids in marshmallow test

2009-09-30T22:56:00.001+08:00

Hahaha. i found this video posted by my Ate Joan @Facebook, and i find it so FUNNY! haha..

so here,, watch it!

Enjoy!

Bonne Nuit!Ü

2009-09-30T20:37:00.001+08:00

Last day of September!

Oh well, O'Levels next month. updated my calendar plus did some AMaths stuff. unbelievably YES! i did some. hahaha.

Oh well.. just updated my blog before September ends.

Blog next month! Ü

Typhoon Ondoy - Free Swimming Pool.

2009-09-27T14:17:00.003+08:00

OMG. I heard about the New Typhoon hit The Philippines last 26th September 2009.

I heard my friends and relatives complaining about the heavy rainfall these past few days and what i can say is: "OMG!! Brace yourselves!!!" The Flood was so scary. The Flood level drowned most cars on the road, specially in Manila. People here and there were stranded because of the flood.

Here's a video of how cars swam through the flood.

I think the video was taken by Med Students from University of the East Ramon Magsaysay. It's being passed / shared around facebook, and i saw it in youtube.

Actually, though the flood and rain were terrible, i miss all of these. Feeling so scared because of flood, so irritated because of the heavy rain, cold weather and sometimes, blackout. OMG. I wanna go back already!!! Ü

more videos from youtube:

Here's another one. you can see how they cope with flood. gosh. so scary and please, pray for them...

my cries... T_T

2009-09-24T21:47:00.002+08:00

I am a happy and jolly person, but deep inside my smiles are the tears and pain caused by some things happening in my life.....

When i was in pinas, ndi nmn aq "bobo" eh.. nag aaral ako, i was into my studies kasi nun eh,, pra bang may something lagi n nag momotivate skn - my friends and the people around me. Masaya kasi eh, alam mong hindi ka nagiisa. Nakakamiss pa yung class na masaya, close s teachers chaka may mga times n gingawang exciting ng teachers ung lessons. Nang mapunta aq s Singapore, wala na. Ni ndi ko na makita un "saya" ng buhay. Feeling q, palagi nlhan aq magisa. Plagi nlhan aqng tinatamad. Para bang wala nang saysay un buhay q, wala nakong pakialam s mga nanyayari skin. hindi q n mkta un mapapala q s pgaaral, alam q pra s future un, dati plague q iniicp un future q, naun wala na. Para bang feeling q s kalye nlhan aq.. Hindi ko mapasa ung exams q eh, sbhan kb nmn ng idiot or dumbass, nakakatuwa ba un?

Akala q, pag close friends, dpat kng gsto m mgalit, ipapakita muh, e ako? ndi gnun. pag cnsbhan nla aq ng msskit at offensive stuff, tinatake q nlhan as a joke, kahit deep inside, gusto q na manabunot, manakit, manampal, manuntok! Hindi purket mas may alam sila academically kesa skn, hindi naman sila marunong makisama. Siguro ako lhan nkkrmdam neto, siguro ako lhan ang nalulungkot s nang yayari skn, siguro walang makakaintindi sakin, hindi ko siguro mapa-agree un mga tao na nahihirapan ako, pero yun talaga eh! nahihirapan aq dito.

Ni minsan, hindi aq bumagsak s kahit ano nung nasa pinas pako. Mahirap man, kaya ko. pursigido eh, dito parang wala nang epek skn ang pag aaral, bagsak o pasa, i don't care. Kasi ni minsan, hindi aq naging masaya dito, lalo pa nawala ang Ninang Ellen q, wala nakong kakampi.

Tuwing kasama q mga "kaibigan" ko dito, kuno, tas magpapaturo aq ng something na ndi q magets, ssbhan kp in english n "anu ba yan. ang dali2 eh. ndi m mgwa?" e s ndi q magawa kaya q nga tinatanung e! Kung alam lhan ng iba ang nrrmdaman q, lalo pa mga intsik lhat ng classmates q, mnaguusap sila s intsik nilang salita din. lague akong OP! anu mggwa q? wala akong kwenta dito eh. wala! huhuhu..

gusto q na magbalik s pinas! andun mga kamag anak q, kaibigan q, lahat ng tao. Mas masaya dun eh. Nun nga, iniicp q pa mag PR (Permanent Resident) para pag nagcollege ako dto, mas mura bayad pero tinatanong q sarili q,
.ano ba pipiliin q, magandang esukasyon overseas pero sobrang lungkot q?
.o super saya q pero ndi nmn aq ngaaral overseas.
education or happiness? un ung point dun eh!

Sana may mkaintindi sakin. Sana malaman nilang ni minsan ndi aq nging msaya dto at lalo lhan npapahamak ang pag aaral q dhil ndi q n mkta un "saysay" ng buhay q naun.

I'll edit tomorrow.

2009-09-24T19:41:00.002+08:00

Today, we received our Chem Papers and AMaths Papers and English Paper 2. *no comment*

Had detention, too, for an hour. When i arrived home, i slept. Ain't in the mood to do anything now. I'm so hungry.

Have AMaths Remedial tomorrow. I'm always included for AMaths. haha.

Gotta eat dinner.

Later.♥

School's back!!! :(

2009-09-23T20:46:00.002+08:00

School's starts again. We're back to academic business. haisz.

We received two prelim papers today - Geography and EMaths.

I got a "Just pass" for geography, then i passed my EM P1 and failed my EM P2 by two marks. But overall percentage of my EM paper, i got a C5. hahahaha! Ü

Anyway, tomorrow, i'll be doing my Detention with Swas after school, then Mdm Tan said, i'm again, included in the list for AMaths Remedial. So, i hope she won't make me go to school on a Saturday. Torture!!! T^T

Hmm. well, when i arrived home, my father was watching TV, then he was changing the channel until he reached the "Preview" on Starhub cable. I was so shocked when I saw that the Channel on Preview was the "sensai" Channel (A Malay Channel if i'm not wrong) and the show was a Filipino Drama, dubbed in Malay Language. OMG! really shocked! :O

Ok. That's all.
I also updated my wordpress blog. Ü

Chao!♥

2009-09-22T20:03:00.002+08:00

What a day.

woke up by lunchtime and took a bath after a while. I was supposed to meet Swas by 1.30pm BUT i was late again (sorry) hahaha.

We were planning to watch "I Love You, Beth Cooper" but then, when we arrived at The Cathay to buy the tickets, the personnel said the showing of the movie's over. So we decided to watch "The Ugly Truth" - both movies are NC16 ratings. Swas wanted to celebrate her 16th birthday. hahaha

Anyway, we ate at Nihon Mura - 4 plates of sushis (each of us) plus swas ordered strawberry milkshake drink and i ordered oreo milkshake. It was all worth it. Ü

Around 3.15pm, we went up to the cinemas and the movie shows at The Grand Cathay. woah! the cinema theater was so HUGE and SPACIOUS. i love it. hahaha. we love it. hihi.

Uhm, we went home around 6pm. and well, there. i'm back home.

The movie was quite dirty - using censored languages and all - but it was amazingly funny. hahaha.

School again tomorrow. haix. Can't wait to go back to The Philippines. I miss my friends, cousins and everyone there! I'll be happier there than being stuck here. x_x

less than 100days 'till christmas. yey! ♥

2009-09-21T23:04:00.002+08:00

It's evening time.

We did nothing today but stayed at home. There's school tomorrow BUT our class need not go to school since Prelims will be for Combine science students.

Anyway, gonna watch movie with swas tomorrow.

oh oh! gotta have a new handphone again. since my phone's gone.

Good night.♥

till tomorrow.

2009-09-21T12:07:00.002+08:00

Bonjour! Ü

i slept quite late again last night. Thus, i woke up late this morning, too. I didn't want to wake up, still, when my mom was waking me up BUT i suddenly felt awake when my mum said "your phone couldn't be repaired anymore. the service center called and said it was severely corroded." whaaat! no more phone? my 5800 bought for my bday this year, didn't even reach a year in my possession! Gosh!

Now, they are going to buy a new phone for me but i don't know when. I hope they will. T_T

Anyway, if ther are going to buy for me, i want the one that slides to the side. i forgot the unit/model but it's still Nokia. hahahaha.
always a nokia-lover. Ü

BTW, today's 37th anniversary of Martial Law in the Philippines.
Oh man. say NO to another Martial Law. NO!

Blog later.

2009-09-20T23:35:00.002+08:00

It's night time!

Today's Hari Raya Puasa! To my Muslim friends and classmates, Happy Hari Raya! (idk how to greet them. I think it's: Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!)

Anyway, we went to my aunt's house to attend their birthday party. hehe.. we spent almost whole day there - chitchatting here and there about Life in Singapore - and then we went to church. We wanted to go Bugis this morning BUT we just didn't because we woke so damn late! ahhahaha.. (as always).

*Happy Birthday Tita Teresa and her son Raffy. :]

So.. maybe tomorrow we will. hahaha. MAYBE.. Ü

Also, swas and i are going to watch a movie on tuesday, either "I Love You, Beth Cooper" or "The Ugly Truth", - celebration of her 16th Bday. ü

Oh well, i've been out during my 4-day long weekends. hahaha..

till then.
Bonne nuit.♥

2009-09-19T01:04:00.001+08:00

Oops! it's morning already!

Well.. we arrived around 10pm+ today, i mean yesterday, from Nihon Mura in The Cathay. It's a japanese restau so it's mostly sushi but i only eat one or two kinds of sushi there. hahaha. I don't really eat sushi that's why.

Anyway, since i went home early from school, my bro and i went to Hougang Mall to eat our lunch first and roamed around to kill time. Then i went to my mom's office @Dhoby Ghaut first around 4pm, as my bro went for his tuition class and would follow later. I arrived around 5pm at my mom's office and waited until 5.30pm to go Nihon Mura with Ate Joan, Ate Angie and Ate Vivian. 7.30pm when my brother arrived.
**I bought new clothes today when we were @Hougang Mall! bwahahaha! I also met Li Ying and Kokila around there. Ü

Can u believed that? we stayed in Nihon Mura for more than 3hrs? we decided to go home past 9pm already. hahaha! That's why i am so sleepy now. Ate Joan was just the life of the gathering. She made us all laugh. What an entertainer. Ü

FYI.. Today, i mean yesterday, was my last prelim paper! yey! hahaha. So, a public holiday on Monday (Hari Raya) plus no need to go to school on tuesday (no prelim paper for me). So, 4-day weekends! yeah baby! Time for my story again. yes! I can continue writing my own story again after leaving it @ the 7th page Ü

Oh well, nothing much for me now. I gotta go hit the bed this instant. it's past 1am. *panda eyes*

And i have to go, later, to the Nokia center @Wheelock place in Orchard, for my Handphone which had dropped into the water! eww! =&

Blog later..
Bonne nuit!♥

2009-09-17T21:10:00.002+08:00

" ♥ Love is like a war: easy to begin but very hard to stop..."

,,I saw this on my friend's facebook account and it sound so cute! Ü

I likey! hehehe.. I think it's quite true and straight to the point for its meaning :)

♥♥♥

My cellphone bathed...

2009-09-17T19:58:00.003+08:00

What an evening. As usual, a very BORING day. Thought something UNLUCKY happened to me. disgusting and gross! =&

Anyway, i was early this morning. I arrived quite earlier than usual today. So i went to the toilet to re-touch myself and all. Then, i was inside the cubicle when my Cellphone dropped straight to the bowl! What a disgusting scene! And worse still, i had to pick it up!

OMG! i can't believe i actually did that - picking up something from a very "eeew!" spot. gross!!! >,<

Then after which, i went to the classroom to "repair" my phone 'coz it's not working anymore. I mean, it was still working but when i got home, it just don't switch on ever again... Such an "eeew" thing yea? :(

My phone bathed! When i was in school, it was still working. BUT there was this water droplets inside the phone screen, i can see it. So, I went home to dry it up under the sun (as what they told me to do so) but, it just don't turn ON anymore! T_T

Oh well... I'm still trying to make it work! gosh! i can't live without it. How can i text(sms) people when i need to? :(

Later...
;C

100 days before Christmas.. ♥..

2009-09-16T20:15:00.004+08:00

woke up almost 1pm today. hahaha. obviously, i would wake up late since i slept so late yesterday.

Anyway.. i was watching the Philippine news in The Filipino Channel (TFC) and i found out that one boxer, Manuel Marquez, drinks his Urine twice a day as a preparation for his upcoming boxing match. OMG. i can't think of it being "acceptable" to the world! gross!

BTW.. 100 days before Christmas! yay!! I want Christmas to arrive now! can't wait! I wanna go back to the Philippines. I miss my life there.. amazing life i had. now, i can't say it's amazing since i don't even feel happy being @home... i even hate being stuck here, without my aunt around. i miss her so much! T^T

having Swastika's Bday tomorrow plus Physics Prelims P1&P2 :(

ok then, later....

2009-09-16T00:32:00.002+08:00

its morning! i haven't sleep yet. hahaha..

Well, not that i'm studying, obviously. It's just that, i couldn't sleep. My energy is still so high. haha..

BTW, it's 16th September now. I need not go to school later since i don't have any Prelim Paper to take. haha.. I'm planning to read up some Physics stuff since that's going to be my next subject for Prelims.

Oh oh! today, i mean yesterday, i saw "him" about to cross the street at the stoplight and i was inside the bus, passing by his bus stop. He didn't make it to the bus stop before the bus arrive so, well.. yeah. too bad huh? :(

But i don't care now since i am so happy with my life now (with exceptions to personal "hurt" feelings towards the people i should be closest with)...

Till then.. i should hit the bed now, yeah? Lemme Finish the "Shaun The Sheep" show in Disney Channel or maybe not. Maybe later. But i will sleep, FOR SURE! Ü

mornight!♥

2009-09-14T22:56:00.002+08:00

3 more days till prelim ends! can't wait! Ü

anyway.. i'm using my bro's vaio laptop. hehe.. my laptop's still not working properly..

So, my prelims for today was.. uhm.. "as always" hehe.. then, well..
i was late today so i was supposed to do detention, with Shumaiya, Swastika, Kokila, Thavan and Melvin but we all changed detention date to the same day again, 24Sept09. hahaha.. because we don't wanna do it today since they will all be studying for AMaths while i am here, trying my best not to be lazy for AMaths but, well. unfortunately, unsuccessful trials. hahahaha.

Just hope that Luck + Miracle will reign over me. wooh! haha.

Ok fine. about the detention. well, the paper was supposed to start around 9.15am so i thought, we can come to school later than usual but NO! T^T
We were supposed to report the same timing as usual for Monday mornings. i didn't know. So, when i came there, they asked me to fill up the late form plus detention form. Sadly, it was my first time being late, YET i have to do detention. HOW SAD ryt? :(

What else? uhm. nothing. hahaha..

so, bonne chance for AMaths tomorrow, huh? Luck + miracle! hahaha.

Bonne nuit.
Au revoir.♥

2009-09-12T20:15:00.002+08:00

Today's quite better than ever though i still haven't started my SS revision. So, maybe later i will hahaaha..

Anyway, my brother assured me he'll lend me his Vaio Laptop first while my Laptop's still not working properly. yay! Ü

Uhm.. what else? maybe tomorrow, we're going for the Last Day of Comex 2009 @ Suntec Convention Center. MAYBE i can have the DSLR hahahaha! "you wish!" right? haha :))

Ok fine.
Blog later.♥

2009-09-11T20:48:00.002+08:00

Badtrip! That's all I can say today.

We went to the Suntec Convention Center for the Singapore Comex 2009.

My brother bought a brand new Sony Vaio Laptop (black) and we also bought Nintendo Wii. Ü

Okay. So, we should be happy, but i wasn't. Firstly, because my freakin' laptop is still not working. Secondly, because i was kinda offended when mum kinda embarrassed me. I wanted a DSLR camera before, then my mom said she'll buy me one soon. Comex 2009 came and i thought this would be the "soon" she told me. So, we went to the DSLR shop, and we asked questions. Then my mum kept saying negative things about me there. She could just tell me, "don't buy now it's still so expensive" not saying like "she is not professional for that. she only wanna take her own photos". Grrr!! that is soo embarrassing. the person was like, laughing quietly! huhu..

I feel so sad and upset with my mom. She always say something that offends us AND something that gives us negative image. huhu.. I almost cried. huhu..

Anyway.. yea. that's all.. still in bad mood today.
gosh!!!

I hope, next time, she'll just SHUT UP!!! X_X

blog later.

2009-09-09T20:41:00.002+08:00

yes! No More Study camp! bwahahaa!!!

Well, we had Raisin Muffins as our Free Snack during our first break time.. Yesterday, we had Curry Puff. First time, i tried Curry Puff and it tasted good.

Anyway, my laptop is still not working. Gosh! I need its warranty but I CAN'T FIND IT! I've been looking for it for hours! hahaha...

So.. i don't have to go to school tomorrow but i want to watch "I love you, beth cooper" but no one wants to watch with me :(

Blog later.
Au Revoir ♥

2009-09-08T18:30:00.003+08:00

I am the Unluckiest Person in the World!

why? because all my stuff are gone. I mean, my roaming is off plus my laptop! oh man! my laptop is like.. it's functioning BUT the screen is just black. Whenever i turn it on, it will just be ON but the monitor / screen is just black, nothing displays :(

I don't know what to do.. Ever since i came to Singapore, my life only revolved around my personal laptop. anyway, now i am using the SLOW COMPUTER in our living room. grr.. it is so slow, that if i use the Yahoo Messenger, I can't use the Mozilla anymore. or else, it will malfunction. i mean, lag here lag there. gosh!

Only one day of this, I've gone crazy. grr..
I hope, i can have my laptop back. I mean, back in its good condition...

ANYWAY.. while i was bored just now, i searched for Britney Spears pictures. And here's one i like: ( i like her hair)

2009-09-07T21:25:00.002+08:00

"Nothing is impossible."

Yes. That's true. Being famous for something is not impossible, especially when you are the first one to come up with something new to the people.

okok. I'm telling this because of "Moymoy Palaboy" - brothers who became famous in The Philippines for their lip sync videos in youtube... They have made so many videos now, but i remember one of the first videos they ever posted in youtube.. I didn't know they'll get famous for that. hahaha.

I just wanna share it. Ü
I still think they're funny. hahaha...

2009-09-07T19:55:00.002+08:00

Actually.. this week is a week holiday! HOWEVER, we still have to go to school from today 'till Wednesday for "study camp".

We had 3 subjects, 1hr 30mins EACH. Though we are dismissed by 1.30pm, i still find it a No-no! haha. 'cause i want to enjoy my vacation.

Anyway, what am i going to say now? nothing!

Oh. oh! i am writing a short poem right now.. It's kinda embarrassing so i'm going to post it in my wordpress or multiply account later on. Ü

Blog later.
So sleepy T^T

2009-09-07T01:50:00.002+08:00

i can't sleep!
it's almost 2 in the morning. I am so bored and NOT SLEEPY!

Gosh!!

2009-09-06T23:43:00.003+08:00

I was "exploring" other people's blog because i am having this BOREDOM in me AS ALWAYS... anyway, while career-ing my busybody-ness, i saw this logo depicting Proud Filipinos...

I clicked the logo and the site shows what this Logo is all about. Hence, i decided to post it in my blog TOO! hahahaha. Why? 'cause i am a Proud Filipino, though i am currently staying overseas... Oh man! i am missing my beloved country once again.. How i wish i could go back at this instant!.. Others may say, The Philippines is polluted and is economically poor, but Filipinos stay happy and NOT a BORING country. :)

Ok fine. i'll stop talking about this, or else people would say i offended someone or something if i get carried away :] ..I just want to let my feelings out. Since, The Philippines is not the most amazing country for some people. if they only know what lies beneath our "whatever" government. hahaha..

Ok.. here's the Logo, by the way. hahaha. i posted it on my sidebar, though. Ü

♥ Proudly Pinoy

Having school tomorrow...
Bonne nuit!♥

2009-09-06T23:00:00.003+08:00

I really want to go to the school's Prom Night. Back in the Philippines, Prom Night is one of the MOST AMAZING event in your high school life. Without it, it's not fun at all. That's why i was so sad when i left my previous school. :(

Though Yuying announced about the Prom Night we're going to have this November 18th. I am looking forward to it.

They might say, you just eat and drink in this formal event. Actually, it's not. Prom is something to get along with your fellow graduates, not just wearing formal dresses. OMG... i hope there will still be Prom Night after 'O' Levels or else.........

*my class wants a Chalet instead of coming to the Prom. Oh man! Chalet is just for our class but Prom is for the WHOLE GRADUATES to enjoy... I have no comments now. =.=

2009-09-06T19:33:00.002+08:00

I did mention yesterday that i went to Giant. Well, it was huge and with wide variation of cheap stuff from clothing to groceries.. I bought my 3 Kitkat Chunky again! wahahah! ^____^

anyway.. today, i just stayed home. Did some additions to my ipod and checked what's new this month... Nothing much have changed in the music charts.. just the same songs rotating the charts from last month..
Oh, I LOVE Taylor Swift's You Belong With Me, Our Song, Picture To Burn and Love Story. Oh.. She is just so great..
Actually, i didn't like her before so i was not really so updated with her lovelife until today, when i was exploring YouTube. I found out that she was Joe Jonas's ex-girlfriend, and they broke up via 27-seconds phone call. Wow. Ü

I kinda knew something about her and how she started her career. She writes songs inspired by her "own" experiences. That's why people, especially girls, can relate to her songs with the "story" behind it.

Oh.. gotta do my Chem Papers now. hahaha.. ^___^
I almost forgot about it. It's just so boring to do exam papers.. haii :(

blog later.
Chao!♥

2009-09-05T10:56:00.003+08:00

Oops. i forgot to blog yesterday :(

Well, what happened yesterday......... hmm.. oh! we had Prelims (Geog and EMaths). I had to rush my Geog 'coz i didn't have much time.. Though, i finished both papers, I don't have that "confidence" for my Geog Paper.. BUT i will pass my EMaths. I know Ü hehe..

Then, after Prelims, we had Chem Remedial, went through our mock papers, and Ms.Chan gave us 5 more mock papers. OMG! we have to finish it before monday, so i will do it later or tomorrow.. YES I WILL DO IT!! hehe..
After which, Swas and I went to McDonald's since no one would be home, so better be out first. We met Thavan @ Mcdo and he joined us there. (thanks for sharing ur shaker fries!! ^____^ )..
He left first since Kenan was waiting for him.. I bought an ice cream @ Mcdo and then Swas and I walked around heartland Mall 'coz i had to finish my food before going to the MRT...

then.. uhm. yeah. i arrived home safely.. waited for everyone to come home.

XXXXXXXXXXXX
Today, i'm going to Giant with my mom and bro. First time for me to go there today, since i don't really go with them. I had to choose whether to go with them or stay at home and do chores! .oh i hate chores so i'm going. hahahaha. Dad's gonna do all the chores. Ü

Blog later.
Au revoir.♥

2009-09-03T23:54:00.001+08:00

just finished two Paper 1 EMaths past-year prelim papers.
haiix.. still not confident enough :(

anyway.. gotta read my Geog Notes now.. then revise and re-read again tomorrow..

Oh Man. Wish me Luck! T^T

I've been so hopeless for ALL MY SUBJECTS...

they keep telling me.. i can do it, im just so lazy. But, i dont have that "hardworking" mindset :(

Oh well.. it's gettin' late..
Bonne nuit!♥

2009-09-02T18:48:00.003+08:00

Prelims started already! I am HOPING and aiming for at least a B3 for EL :(

Anyway.. today's a great day, though it's prelims. Why? Because, i am HAPPY! hahaha. Why again? hmm.. can't i be happy? Ü

So, nothing much today. just prelims. hehehe.

Oh oh! i left my keys at home! I had to wait for someone to enter our condo tower, so i could go in too. :( So much for being so forgetful. T^T

Haiix.. Prelims= torture,. really! *sobs*

My paper tomorrow starts @ 11am. so i can come to school around 10am. Yay! Ü

Good Luck for AMaths Prelim tomorrow!
All the best for me..

...Integrate the Differentiated...

2009-08-31T21:02:00.003+08:00

today's last day of August 2009! bwahahaha! Au revoir august! :]

HOWEVER, September is exams month. prelims man! :( *torture*

anyway.. we had Teachers' Day Celebration @ 11.30am, after recess. Actually, we had Physics Mock Test plus Going through of AMaths Paper during recess (that's why we didn't have recess today).

Fortunately, tomorrow's a holiday! yea baby! Ü
Going to my mom's office with my brother tomorrow

study for prelims now..

Bonne chance!♥

PS:
♦A happy happy belated birthday to my mumie KOKILA! (yesterday 30aug09)
♦Happy Birthday to Wan Jing & Aaron.
hehe..
♦HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to all teachers Ü

2009-08-30T19:39:00.002+08:00

Such a boring day today..

I miss Ninang Ellen already :(

anyway, we just went to church and ate outside...
Then, i saw Kokila @ Popular. hahaha. She's with her two Bros. Ü

Ok.. that's all.. tomorrow's Teacher's Day... but classes still on. hayy...

When will i have freedom to decide myself? :(

2009-08-29T23:30:00.002+08:00

i update my multiply account.. always..
when there's something new. hahaha. Ü
i just updated it.
I thought of "embed-ing" my multiply flash (badge) since no one views it.
uhm.. that's all.Ü

bonne nuit!♥

2009-08-29T20:57:00.002+08:00

I'm home!!! ♥

We watched " The Proposal " of Sandra Bullock. I love it! it was damn funny!
imagine, a girl or a lady, wait. a bossy, classy, strict lady proposing to a man on her knees in public? what a freak right? hahaha!

Anyway... it's just so good. Well, all movies are good. That's why i love movies.. Ü

Then this morning, my aunt left and she just texted me that she arrived already. Now she is in Bulacan, a province in The Philippines. ♥

Hence, I gotta go home early everyday to meet my brother and eat outside, OR do chores. Oh man! :[

2009-08-28T19:56:00.002+08:00

Finally! i have finished watching " Yours, Mine & Ours " hahaha.. 2nd movie i've watched today! First was " The Wedding Date " ..

I just love movies, specially comedy movies. Both movies i just watched were comedy. It's my stress-reliever, as well as Boredom-reliever. hahahaha ♥

Planning to watch "The Proposal" tomorrow with mom and my bro... Since I love Sandra Bullock from her Miss Congeniality movie.. She's funny. I love her. Ü

2009-08-28T19:49:00.003+08:00

Another Friday again! Ü

Usually, i'm happy every Friday, but now..... am not!
'cos my aunt's gonna leave tomorrow. She's going back to The Philippines, leaving me alone here. Sad to say but, that's what is happening.

Anyway, i don't feel good anymore.. I just can't wait for O'levels to end...

all i can wish for right now is democracy for myself, a freedom to decide and speak for myself.

Till then..

2009-08-27T21:10:00.005+08:00

today.. we did.. uhm.. nothing? hahaha...

we had 4 periods of AMaths... as in 4 straight periods! torture meeehhnn!!
so, since i was so bored and very lazy to listen during lesson, i decided to have my own DORA The Explorer adventure!

Title: DORA, to the toilet...
(Dora is going to ask the map how to go to the toilet so, i drew the map! hahahaha.. yeah it's lame.. just bear with it. OK? Ü)

hahah.. there.. i forgot to take a photo of Swas' version of Boots and Patrick Star! hahahaha

Tomorrow's Friday.. Ninang Ellen's leaving on saturday morning.. so we are going out tomorrow as her last day in Singapore..
i'm gonna miss her. :[

2009-08-26T21:38:00.005+08:00

i thought i won't switch on my laptop today.. but i changed my mind. hehehe. Ü

Today, we had Frisbee for our last PE lesson before Prelims. Speaking of prelims, i'm getting nervous now. hahaha
anyway, about PE, well it was fun.

nothing much happened today.. or nothing special..

oh oh! last monday we took class photo for teacher's day present.. i took one picture from geraldine's blog.. hehehe... Ü

after which, Shumaiya asked us to take a photo, the four of us - swas, me, kokila and her. here's one of it.. @ the staircase..

more of it @ my multiply

hehehe.. just wanna share. ^____^

uh.. that's all.. gotta continue chatting with my friends again.

au revoir! ♥

2009-08-25T23:49:00.001+08:00

know what? today, im in seventh heaven ([extremely happy] -learned from the idioms we had in English) !! :))

Anyway, u know why? something happened this afternoon. Ü

Ok, so.. after the drill we had today, in which we were stuck under the intense heat from the sun!!, we went to the Hall for the debriefing. then, when we were dismissed by class, i thought Jerk is not there anymore. So, i started talking non-stop again to Swas, and we went to the way near the library..
Then, someone shouted my name. i did not even hear and i just ignore the noise all over the floor. Swas and Mumie and dadie told me Jerk yelled out my name!(OMG! is that freakin' true?! i wonder y did he do that. for fun? Oh gosh! :| )
So, i looked back, i saw Jerk and his friend, but Jerk was facing his back at me. I had butterflies with disappointment. If he will talk to me, i dont mind. i even LOVE it. haha ♥
i hope he'll talk to me soon... Since i didn't really see the whole thing, and didn't even hear him how he pronounced my name, (if he really called me), i just kept imagining the whole scenario. hahahaha. *daydream*

That's all. so sleepy now. hehehe.
bonne nuit!♥

2009-08-23T15:22:00.007+08:00

Hi..

I was watching Lady Gaga's Poker Face Music Video, then i saw in one of the related videos, "How to makeup like Lady Gaga".

I watched it AND i realized, she's a makeup freak. She has so many videos about makeup applications.
Since, i have NOTHING to do, I tried copying one of it, the "cool chic for school" makeup, but it wasn't perfectly copied, since i don't have the brushes and eye liner she was using :(

Anyway, i showed it to my mom and aunt, and they said, "it's fine!" At least, it's not bad at all. I tried to blend the eye shadows i only have. I tried blending glittery blue, sticky pink and snow white colors. hihi.. it looked natural though.

I took some photos. It may not be that obvious, the makeup i mean. hehe..

Oh! it's my first time to use foundation and concealer! haha. So amateur :P

I know, it's not as good as others', at least, i did quite better :P
and, it looks.... natural? HAHAHHAHA...
(as if i didn't put on makeup right? hahaha)

*I'll practice my makeup skills since my mum's buying makeup brushes and eye liners for me! (i mean, HOPEFULLY!! ;p )

2009-08-22T21:45:00.002+08:00

Salut!

I really want to do my TYS, reallllly! but, i changed my mind. tomorrow, i will. hahaha..

I went to church today and Hougang Mall.

uh.. that's all? :]

Prelims are coming.. and September's coming too!
Can't wait for O'lvls to end though Ü;

I am planning to take Communication Arts, since i am not confident enough i'll make it to journalism.

I wanna watch "I love you, Beth Cooper" but, i have no one to go and watch it with *sobs*

Bonne nuit! ♥

2009-08-22T12:10:00.002+08:00

Bonjour!

I slept early yesterday, before 11pm :]
yet, i woke up 11am+ today. hahaha..

Well.. i was plurk-ing when my mum went to my room and told me.. "hmp!" giving my allowance. yeheeeey!!
now, i'm finally equipped with money to spend again! Brave to go out and shop again, huh? ;p

Ohh.. i loooove allowance! hahaha..

U know, i'm planning to do my freakin' TYS.. so, good luck for me! :3

2009-08-21T21:47:00.003+08:00

woo! it's friday! can you believe that? another weekend again!
yheeey!

well.. school's boring as usual. We did nothing but TYS here, TYS there...
So this weekend i wanna go out.. but nowhere to go and no one to go out with.. so boring :(

BTW.. i changed my blogger layout :]
hihihi.. i find this better than the previous one..
and i dont know whether i still need my Tagboard haha.. no one tags me though.

i edited some pictures, too and made it my PC new wallpaper.
so many changes today. hahaha Ü

Ohh..i think that's all for today's post.

Au revoir ♥

2009-08-20T21:13:00.002+08:00

Hello hello! :]
good evening!!♥

it's been how many days? uh.. 3 days? hahaha..

Oh! i forgot to blog after my O'Lvl Oral..
actually.. the Reading was FINE.. manageable.. but my picture discussion? OMG! the picture was about this shop.. idk how am i going to describe it but.. it's a shop somewhere like a tiangge which sells those "authentic" or "cultural" whatever haha.. and then.. the Conversation was OKAY.. haha.. They asked about shopping and a place you've been to..

2nd day (18Aug) was about Smoking.. i find that the 2nd day topic is easier than the 1st day.. But, at least, a pass would be much appreciated hahaha.... Ü
I hope i can pass my EL.. Oh gosh!!

Yesterday, the O'Lvl MT results came out. i saw some of my classmates cried. I know the feeling but still, life must go on...

Today, we had AMaths P2 Mock Test. haaha.. need not ask me anymore how was it, answer's simply... whatever. hahaha.. Ü

Can't wait for friday which is tomorrow 'coz.. Friday means PARTEEEEEEEEEY! :D

♥arak3nah...

2009-08-17T05:51:00.002+08:00

Bonjour!

I just woke up.. I'm feeling quite nervous today 'coz im havin' my English O'Lvl Oral later..

I'm so worried i couldn't speak for the Picture Discussion.. i hate picture discussions! T^T

Oh well.. i gotta go bathe now.. so i can go to school before 7.15am.. (have the EL talk haiix..)

wish me luck! *fingers crossed*
(bonne chance!)

♥arak3nah.

2009-08-13T21:35:00.002+08:00

after 11 days... a new post again hehehe..

i forgot to post these past few days because.. i dont know. i seem to forget blogging 'coz of FB and all.. Ü

Nothing much to blog anyway.. besides, no one is reading this. hHAHAHA..

speaking of which, i wrote 4 pages of my story now! yeheey! finally, i'm really trying MY VERY BEST to finish my story. my 1st ever story to write :]

I know, am just an amateur author, but.. this may LET ME accomplish my dream of being a Journalist! Oh man.. how i wish i can be a journalist. just that, my english sucks like hell! grr...

Oh.. Btw.. My English O'Lvl Oral Exam is Next Week.. still, my Picture Discussion is my WEAKEST part :(

Bonne Chance!

♥ɐuıɹʇɐʞ ɐɹɐ

2009-08-02T11:10:00.004+08:00

bonjour! Ü

I woke up earlier than my usual waking up time today. ihihihi..
Oh well, know what?
Last night, i dreamed about him and his girlfriend.
There was this place with an overhead bridge and tables at the end of it. There i was, Swas and i actually, sitting on the chairs when He and his Girl walked along the overpass.
Then they saw us and his Girl shouted my name. I looked back and Shocked! He was like laughing when his Girl was walking towards me.. Then she sat on the table where i was sitting,
and asked me "can i talk to you?" while she called Him "hey! come over here!" and he was like just laughing "hahaha"...

I feel soo crushed. T^T

Then Swas whispered to me "kat, u sure bout this?"
and i was like "hope so"...

Then after a minute, He and his Girl were like, laughing and looking @ each other.
So i said (so i can ESCAPE), "oh sorry. i gotta rush now. i still have to go another place to meet my friends. Sorry, bye."
then i ran past the overhead bridge and Swas followed.

Then we walked to the nearest mall and just roam around there when suddenly,
i CRIED, " Swas, *sobs* how could he be so mean? is He that NUMB to not feel i will get hurt when that happened? it's so painful.. *crying hard* T^T "

Swas: Just don't mind him.. *entering one shop* there are still so many guys out there. Don't waste your time on someone so B*st*rd. ok? Smile now.

Me: i dont know................
.............
.......
....

then suddenly.. there was a noise.. which made me woke up!!! hahaha :]
well, whew! good thing it wasn't for real!! T_T

hmm... gotta FB again. hihihi...
till then..

♥arak3nah.

2009-08-01T20:03:00.002+08:00

wow! it's august! :]
a New month again..

4 weeks of preparation for Prelims this coming September.

also.. 2 weeks for O'Lvl Oral Examinations. This is making me nervous yah know, yet i still don't give my best for it. WHY! T^T

Oh well.. i'm planning to do my TYS now.

bonne chance! ♥

2009-07-25T15:27:00.003+08:00

i was playing buddypoke in facebook then i realized i can create GIF images thru it. and so.. i did one.. hahaha

sometimes in school Ü
mood: bored in class

anyway.. i love to dress her up so she changes her style most of the time. hahaha. buddypoke characters are so cute :>

2009-07-25T13:52:00.002+08:00

from facebook:

I took the quiz "What is your best trait?".. then i got this result! :

Sense of Humor: Your best quality would definitely be your sense of humor. You know how to take things with a grain of salt and find yourself having a good time anywhere you go. People also love being around you because you can always make someone laugh and brighten their day.

hihi.. Ü

2009-07-24T22:40:00.002+08:00

TGIF!!!

so happy that O'Lvl SPAChem is OVER! no more SPA for chem! bwahaha!! yet, im so sad as i didn't really do the paper correctly. haiix. Are we really supposed to weigh the mass of the metal carbonate for the decomposition experiment?? damners! :(((

next thing to prepare for? O'LVL SPAPhy! :(

anyway... nothing much for today..
just so tired with my shoulder aching badly T^T

;♥.arak3nah

2009-07-23T22:00:00.002+08:00

Dad's Bday today that's why, we went out for a bday dinner @Cafe Cartel in Hougang Mall. I love that restau sooo much! their foods are AMAZING.. I always suggest that restau every time we have to eat outside on special occasions ehehehe. (photos)

Anyway.. O'Lvl SPAChem tomorrow. OMG!! i hope the paper wud be manageable. T^T

Bonne Chance! Ü

;♥arak3nah.

2009-07-22T16:40:00.002+08:00

haiii.. i am so tired today..
i don't have ample hours of sleep since, i wander around Singapore with Ate Ariane. OMG! i'm so tired. Yet i feel sorry for Ate Ariane coz she had to go back Australia, then i wasn't able to tour her and her friend that much. huhu T^T

Fortunately, I had fun! not just because I saw her but... She's sooo FUNNY!! hahaha. She kept laughing XD no wonder Kuya Rhon loves her. yeeeee!! Ü

Oh well.. Gotta rest for now...

laterssss...
arak3nah.♥

2009-07-19T01:57:00.003+08:00

OMG! it's almost 2am now! i better go to bed already. hmpp!

i just joined plurk - a site where you can "plurk" your "feelings".. it's quite nice.. hehehe...

give it a try peeps! :)))

oh well.. sleepy now! zzZZZzzzZzZz...
still have church tomorrow. mwaahsz!ö

bonne nuit. Ü

2009-07-18T22:22:00.002+08:00

yey!! today, we watched Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince (HP6) and guess what? something happened before it. hahahaha!!!

okok. last thursday, we booked our tickets (me, mum and bro) online @ The Cathay and and and!!!! we booked the 01:30 slot. we went there around 1pm and we thought we'll be late so my bro and I bought pops while mum went to get our tickets from the counter. When we finished ordering the pops, my mum came to us and said. "OMG! we booked the wrong slot! the person @ the counter said it was over. we booked the morning one. haiii.... i forgot that the timings are in 24-hour format! gosh!!" So i was like.. WHAAAAT!!!! then my mum said, fine. let's wait. the person re-booked us to 3.10pm slot. so we WAAAIITTTEEEDDDDDDD!!!!. hahaha.

Then, the show will be @ The Grand Cathay (Cinema 1). and it was HUGE!! and very "WONDERFUL". hahaha. So our seats were in D30-D32. the extend right on the 4th row from behind :|

then. the family of 5 sat beside us. Since, i was on the left, i was the one sitting nearest to them and know what?? they KEPT CHANGING seats. as if i have h1n1 that they dont wanna sit beside me. grrr. quite offensive though. hahaha. 1st was the "dad" sitting beside me then the mother change places with him. then the daughter change place with the mom. and that seat was BESIDE ME! >_>

grrr. hahaha. oh well. at least i ENJOYED the movie. it was AWESOME! ahahaha.. better than the Order of the Phoenix movie... =,=

oh well.. i totally enjoyed the film. and we were like.. "WHAAT! that's it?!?!".. hahaha..

hmm... nothing much for now :D

au revoir...
arak3nah.♥

2009-07-13T17:50:00.002+08:00

oh btw, i have two friends celebrating their birthday today.
Sabina!! happy bdaay!! :) [if u can see this post, then great!Ü]

another one is Ate Kim!
Bon Anniversaire mon amie.!!!Ü
Tu me manques.♥♥

2009-07-13T17:13:00.002+08:00

Salut! Ü

haha. i wanna learn french :(

i'm kinda learning A BIT but SUPER BASIC ones only.. i wanna learn it but i can't. i have no time for it. so, after my 'O's, i'm going to study french! (if i have enough money. hahaha)

je suis très fatigué aujourd'hui.. (if im not wrong, it means: i'm so tired today.) hahaha.

haiix. well. im soo tired, really. :(

au revoir.♥

2009-07-07T16:42:00.002+08:00

oops! it's been days..

anyway, last sunday, my mum taught me how to play Mahjong (Philippine type) and now, i can play it well enough to play with my aunts and uncles. bwahaha!!
it's so fun to play, that we get addicted to it. My mum said it's addictive so, i guess, it's true.Ü

hahaha.. then monday.. hm.. we did NOTHING but rest @ home. hahaha.. i was supposed to do my homeworks but i only did half of it? or a quarter hahaha :))

today, i have to do English Summary and EM revision.. haiix. soo boring!!! T___T

i wanna sleep. i'm soo sleepy and tired..the weather even makes me feel worse :(

btw.. i'm sad today. very sad. right swas? :(

2009-07-05T17:06:00.003+08:00

facebook quiz again. hahaha. i find it quite true actually Ü

title: Ara just dicover the secret behind his/her name.

A : You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
R : You are a social butterfly.
A : You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.

K : You like to try new things.
A : You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
T : You have an attitude, a big one.
R : You are a social butterfly.
I : You are always smiling and making others smile.
N : You like to work, but you always want a break.
A : You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.

H : You are not judgmental.
E : You are a very exciting person.
R : You are a social butterfly.
R : You are a social butterfly.
E : You are a very exciting person.
R : You are a social butterfly.
O : You are very open-minded.