Tuesday, October 13, 2009

@ 10/13/2009 12:29:00 AM

It's quite late now,, but i couldn't sleep. There's so many things bothering me, tonight. It's like, there are so many questions in my mind, and some wishes that are hoping to be granted ...

I just don't know who to talk to regarding this, since no one could understand me except one or two of them who really listens to my freakin' cries. i thank them for that.

At least, i know that a few, one or two people reaaally knoooow me.. how i get angry, how my emotions come out of me, when will i cry, my happiness,, my wants and needs in life.. my personality.. they know me more than anyone.. I couldn't name names, since i don't want them to get involved here.. they know who they are, i've been thanking them every time... that's why i love them. they know me more than my parents or my family do. hahaha..

I wanna be with them.. they may not give me materialistic happiness, they give me the real happiness though, by trying to understand me..

I've been failing all my life.. perhaps, nowadays? hahaha. And i am not bothered, as in... it's like my dreams were crashed months/years ago... No point dreaming anymore, since i couldn't even achieve it.

Yes i am melodramatic here, but i am free to say what i wanna say, who i wanna mention and how am i going to speak here.

I just need some rest from anger, and wants to have a vacation in happiness world. I'm so tired being unhappy... i've lost a lot.. If Only THEY know,, again..
they always don't know anything. How will they know? they don't even listen or understand me.. i think because, they think i am too young to deserve the happiness i've been craving for EVER SINCE! :(

one of the closest people i know was right.. Everything CHANGED after i left The Philippines.. huge changes perhaps.

ok, i gotta sleep now.
later!♥

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

@ 10/13/2009 12:29:00 AM

It's quite late now,, but i couldn't sleep. There's so many things bothering me, tonight. It's like, there are so many questions in my mind, and some wishes that are hoping to be granted ...

I just don't know who to talk to regarding this, since no one could understand me except one or two of them who really listens to my freakin' cries. i thank them for that.

At least, i know that a few, one or two people reaaally knoooow me.. how i get angry, how my emotions come out of me, when will i cry, my happiness,, my wants and needs in life.. my personality.. they know me more than anyone.. I couldn't name names, since i don't want them to get involved here.. they know who they are, i've been thanking them every time... that's why i love them. they know me more than my parents or my family do. hahaha..

I wanna be with them.. they may not give me materialistic happiness, they give me the real happiness though, by trying to understand me..

I've been failing all my life.. perhaps, nowadays? hahaha. And i am not bothered, as in... it's like my dreams were crashed months/years ago... No point dreaming anymore, since i couldn't even achieve it.

Yes i am melodramatic here, but i am free to say what i wanna say, who i wanna mention and how am i going to speak here.

I just need some rest from anger, and wants to have a vacation in happiness world. I'm so tired being unhappy... i've lost a lot.. If Only THEY know,, again..
they always don't know anything. How will they know? they don't even listen or understand me.. i think because, they think i am too young to deserve the happiness i've been craving for EVER SINCE! :(

one of the closest people i know was right.. Everything CHANGED after i left The Philippines.. huge changes perhaps.

ok, i gotta sleep now.
later!♥